I am TIRED! Exhausted in fact! - Actually, I am beyond exhausted!
I am at BREAKING POINT!
But - I am STRONG!
What sickens (and saddens) me most about where I sit right now, is that despite my UNENDING and UNWAVERING strength for others over years and years and years and years and years and years and years and years (detect a little frustration there?)....
is that when I NEED it....
Where is it?
When I need THEM....
Where are they?
Nowhere to be found I tell you.... NOWHERE!
What a bloody Shocker!!! lol!
I can look forwards, backwards, left, right and 360 degrees around - and dizzying as it is, I stand alone.
Strong people don't need other people.... right?!
WRONG!
Years ago, I met a psychic. An incredible woman who within seconds of seeing me, told me everything I already knew about myself. One of the things she told me which made me burst into tears and cry like a child for about two hours, was "you are carrying the burdens of people you have yet to even meet".
Simply hearing those words cracked me in half...
I knew it was the truth - but it hurt, because nobody was there to help me carry my own, let alone the weight of all the rest. It was a difficult pill to swallow and having somebody verbally "confirm" it for me made it an even more difficult cross to bear.
I have spent my life advising others - helping them untie their knots. Finding solutions to all the seemingly unsolvable... It is precisely what I have always wanted to do, but surely not at my own demise? That doesn't make any sense does it?
Of what use am I to anybody else, if I am breaking? So what do the strong do and where do they turn - when they need somebody? I will tell you where they turn... they turn to themselves - because they are the only ones who know... and from my experience, the only ones who truly understand and/or care...
It truly never ceases to amaze me how fundamentally selfish the human race is.
It does not matter how much you sacrifice for another. How much you give of yourself, no matter how challenging... it is A) never enough and B) always lacking in return when you need it most.
People - are FICKLE and ultimately - SHALLOW!
That bell was rung loud and true for me yesterday - and the deafening echo still rings in my ears... never to be forgotten.
But, let the ringing continue... because it is a constant reminder to me that I am NOT here to be anyone's SHEEP!
NOPE!
I might have moments or even days of weakness (I too, am human)...
I might lose my way momentarily and I might find myself on my knees in tears at times, but I will NEVER give up! NEVER - and I will put MONEY on the fact that I will out last most others who seemingly have "all the enthusiasm" in the bloody world!
I don't have any "Gung Ho"?
Hmmmm.....
Oh, I have PLENTY of that dear - AND SOME!
Moments of weakness are NO reflection of one's strength... they are but a building block of that strength!
I am a leader, a fighter, and I, my friend... have more "GUNG HO" than you would EVER know what to do with!
MARK my words!
Until next time...
Much Love from Cape Town, South Africa xxx
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You can never "really help others", as only they can help themselves. We do have to be selfish in order to get to a place where we are truly happy, after all that is the reason we are here, to be as happy as we can be and enjoy every moment to its fullest! so if we don't take care of ourselves first and get to that place of happiness and higher vibration how could we possibly try to help others? once you have achieved this everyone around you will be touched by the love and happiness that shines forth from you. Do not carry other people burdens, return them to their rightful owners, they are not yours to carry. Blessings!
Very well said - thank you @claudiaz I appreciate and value your lovely support and input xxx
you are very welcome Jaynie.
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A lot of what you wrote resonated with me especially the sentence where people think strong people don't need any help, support or to be asked how they're doing!! I've learnt a lot about who my true friends are in the last year or so and all I can say is that people are definitely shallow, fickle and will take advantage where they can but true friends / support do exist so you gotta stay strong and definitely keep yourself as #1. Might seem selfish but putting yourself and your needs first will make you a happier more complete person and this will attract like-minded people who don't need support or solutions all the time :)
Powerful post and I'm glad you shared it - hope you're alright! Xx
What a VERY GOOD point @phamished!!! Thank you so much for your lovely input and your genuine concern. And yes, I am doing a lot better today thank you :)
You're most welcome, just speaking from my own experience :) Glad to hear you're doing better, reach out if you need support!
@jaynie - "Gung Ho!" :0)
I'm not into fighting the good fight. I'm gonna pick up sticks, rocks and anything else I can throw at it until I get to where I want to be.
Go get em kid!
Thank you xxx I appreciate that - really, I do!
Words that chill the back of his power, impressive
Life doesn't give you what you can't handle. Keep fighting the good fight!!!
Thank you xxxxxxxxxxxx EVERY intention of doing precisely that :)
yeeeah.... I have had a listen and a read at the lyrics from start to finish - and before I jump to conclusions, I shall afford you the opportunity to perhaps express precisely what message you were trying to convey in sharing that...
I'd say that your post is contradictory. I belive that if somebody is strong - he doesn't care about images of lions or anyone quotes. But that's only if they trully strong. And strong people do not justify their weakness with opinions like "i cry coz i've been strong so long". They just keep being strong and they don't give a phuq. They don't even mention or care sheeps. So my message was as they say in their song - no matter what they say - money. That's why i put an upvote - so you can bet on yours "I still be strong". But remeber what Juan Matus said - Talks about will power do not add will power. Keep your head up, lady! Syberia with ya!) WOOT!
No-ones really there, fighting for you in the final garison, no-one but you that is...