Death is difficult to process, at all times! Even though I have witnessed the process of shifting to the next world multiple times (I work in surgery) it is always kind of weird. For some reason it wants you to turn off the music and stop talking, even though it doesnt matter anymore.
Although i am around death alot I handle death in my personal circle very bad and it takes me out of my game for weeks.
Apart from that, the week has been succesfull AF and I am looking forward to producing another one of these weeks!
Im a nurse in surgery actually, sorry for the confusion!
Ofcourse I remember my first loss, it was actually still in training when i was working on the normal ward. I took care of an elderly demented man for weeks, because as a student I had the time for that. One morning I walked in and his room was empty and i did not make the 1+1 at all, asking where he was. I was such a confused 18 year old hahaha.
But the first patient actually dying under my hands in surgeryas well was weird, because in the end us nurses are the one you talk to as last before going to sleep. The words 'sleep tight, I am going to take my best care of you' are the most honest ones that I speak daily
Wow, being a doctor must have it’s emotional toll. Do you still remember the first patient you lost? The first loss is always the hardest for me.