I've always thought there was a fine line between genius and insanity. And similarly, the sensitivity that allows someone like you to be a creative force, also leaves you open to feeling stuff that really, really hurts. That is the price you pay unfortunately.
Knowing that doesn't exactly help. But remember that it is impossible to please everybody, so you need to be true to yourself, and I know you do. So just ignore the people who don't get you, and feel the love from the people who do. Hold onto that in the dark hours, and hopefully it will help.
And rest when you can, if you can.
Remember, a long time ago, we had a short conversation about introverts and extroverts and I tried to explain how, for me, there's no such thing as either or, left or right, up or down. It's always both smashing together... genius and insanity at war maybe? Back then I couldn't explain it. No chance now. It's not like it hurts, in a way that causes pain and sadness. It's like something that's getting in the way and I want to kick the living shit out of it, peacefully.
The thing about me is, I can't ignore it. I keep my eye on it, I allow it to exist. I watch it so it can't come and stab me in the back. I don't feel like being robbed.
This comment section though, with all of these kind words. I'm so impressed with everyone. This show of support is not something I ever got to experience in my life until I came here and started doing what I do. I hear it. Loud and clear. It's a life changer. A breath of fresh air.
I'm glad you hear the support. I think that's what we all want, for you to know you're valued and supported.
I live by these words, @kiwideb, thanks for the reminder. Here's a kind of echo, from The Bard:
"Lovers and madmen have such seething brains,
Such shaping fantasies, that apprehend
More than cool reason ever comprehends.
The lunatic, the lover, and the poet
Are of imagination all compact."
cc @nonameslefttouse
and my compatriot, Lebanese poet/philosopher, Gibran:
"I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us. "
What an interesting point of view. I'll definitely have to think about that a bit.
I'll check the links you sent me in Chat too.
Much appreciated, @kiwideb, it’s good to initiate a conversation 🤓