I haven't had them often, but today is one of those days when a craving for a beer to escape reality has been strong. I can actually taste the alcohol in my mouth. My hands are sweating and shaking. My mind is racing a hundred miles an hour. I am in a shitty mood.
I didn't realize the impact that talking about Sgt. Barkey would have on me when I did the drawing for the Hamburger Saint Project last night. I had hellacious nightmares through the night and barely got any sleep. The lack of sleep just left me with this crummy feeling all day long. I managed to write two posts earlier. One was a tutorial, but my heart just wasn't in it. I managed to scrape through it and it turned out ok, but I am usually excited to do those posts because I know how helpful they can be for others. The other was about PeerPlays and truthfully just kind of made me shittier. Who really releases a wallet that is only 64 bit compatible?
After posting I looked out in the yard. I know the grass needed to be mowed. Instead, I just went to bed. I thought it would be a nap, but I woke up four hours later. Yeah, it pretty much wasted my day, but I sit here at 9:15 p.m still sober.
I just wanted to write a short post about this sobriety adventure. It's not always easy. I understand there will be days like this and I need to get through them. For someone else going through this. You can do it.
I am resisting and I will make it to my 55th day of sobriety. I will be better and stronger for it. But fuck today was rough.
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It's amazing the calmness this prayer does give @riosparada. It crossed my mind a few times yesterday.
Thank you for your support in my sobriety adventure. I am going through posts and anyone active within the last 7 days that left me a supportive comment will be entered into a drawing for 50 SBD. Celebrating 75 days sober today!
Been there brother.
💪 Stay strong! 💪
Yeah buddy!
You're the man. You're doing it. Just hang in there. You'll be grateful you did.
Good that you got it out, its the weekend, take time to recharge. You are much more than a day
Went to bed right after that post and I must say I feel a thousand percent better today.
Thank you for your support in my sobriety adventure. As a thank you I will be entering you into a drawing for 50 SBD. Celebrating 75 days sober today!
Hey man, thank you for sharing and hang in there! The end of last year I went 8 weeks just to prove to myself I could - of course being dirt broke certainly did help! Same boat now and your mind does clear. Stay strong bro & hang in / STEEM On !
Made it to the 55th day! And I do feel much better. Thanks for the kind words @lanceman.
Brother @lexicon082 - hoping this weekend is treating you well !
Yes it is @lanceman! Saturday and Today were much better. My head is much more in the game. Thanks for reaching out and checking on me. This community amazes me more and more with its caring.
You will be entered into a drawing for 50 SBD as a thank you for your support in my sobriety adventure! Celebrating 75 days today!
Stay strong, my friend! There will be days like this, but you know why you made this commitment. It's for you and your family's benefit. I can appreciate that its not always easy. 54 days is a great accomplishment and I do believe you'll be 55 and beyond!
Hang in there Brother. you got this!!! Praying for you. Seek ye first the kingdom of God and all things shall be added unto you.
I appreciate the prayers @timmor36663.
Best wishes as I have been down your path before!
Thanks for the best wishes @digestingreality. I do believe that energy flows where it is intended to go.
Yes I agree. Remember Energy only exists if someone is around to see it, feel it or hear it. And it is so nice to experience said energy sober and alert my friend.
i don't think I have informed you but if I did, I apologize. You will be entered into a drawing for 50 SBD for your support in my sobriety adventure. Celebrating 75 days today!
That is awesome news and thanks. I know it is so hard to make the life style change and I wish you nothing but the best.
Ty for the kind words.
@lexicon082 - Keep your head up my friend
I will @dozjia.
@lexikon082 thank you for sharing your journey with us. It is a pleasure to celebrate your achievements with you. Much love for recognizing and honoring the awesomeness that is you my friend. keep up the great work :)
You are welcome @reiki-trail. I usually post about the good stuff, but what's a journey without the valleys too?
Agree! All experience contributes to our adventure & expansion in consciousness if we allow it..and there's much wisdom to be gleaned and shared. Much respect and love!
Thanks for your support. I will be entering you into a drawing for 50 SBD as this support means a lot to me! Celebrating 75 days today!
Cheers @lexikon082! It's an Honor to be sharing in this journey with you and cheering you on my friend :) Thank you for Being You!!! Keep up the great work <3
Sending Reiki Hugs and Lots of Love to you & yours!
Namaste
55th day, congrats. xoxoxoxo You are not alone. Thanks for posting.
I appreciate the congrats @judithgpordon! The community support is very helpful. The "digital support" from the community has very tangible value and it's materialized in my sobriety.
Sounds like a rough day but you made it through it, stay strong man.
Yes, I did @thefinance guy. And today is day 55!
As a thank you for your support I will be entering you into a drawing for 50 SBD. Celebrating 75 days today!.
After I finished my last 9th the obsession was completely lifted. I'm sure you hear it a lot, but the steps really work. Get a capable sponsor and start writing. Sat on my 4th for two years, then did 5-12 in just a few months. Wish I had put pen to paper sooner. Keep trudging!
Thanks for the advice @seanmeeh42!
Thank you for your genuine revelations @lexikon082. Bloody well done to realise and admit when you're not doing well, find an avenue like this forum to vent these vulnerabilities and move past the immediate.
What you're attempting is no easy feat. I rememeber my wife studying drugs and alcohol as part of her psych studies at uni and the message was clear that alcohol is the most nefarious little bastard out there... so you're perfectly justified in finding this hard.
Makes it even harder when there's so much social acceptance for the stuff. I'll keep my eyes out for your posts and try to encourage you along. Keep up the great work 👍
Lots of info in your post @nolnoclluap. Thanks for taking the time to respond. I appreciate the encouragement.
Thank you for your support in my sobriety adventure. As a thank you I will enter you into a drawing for 50 SBD. Celebrating 75 days sober today.
Thank you kindly @lexikono82. What a good idea to celebrate the milestone. Congratulations.
In fact may I also say while we are chatting that you've inspired me to steer clear of social drinking and all manner of alcohol consumption myself.
I see no need for even small amounts of this damaging substance so for some weeks now I've completely cut it out and feel better for it.
I think of your efforts from time to time when pondinging my own little "adventure". Keep up the good work!
Wow, I have been blown away. I am honored to have been that motivation for you. It is truly a dangerous substance and society accepts its consumption which allows for people to downplay its effects. So glad you are one who realized how harmful it can truly be. Stories like yours makes the road that I lived worth it. Thank you for sharing.
It's a pleasure mate. Thank you also. Looking forward to more sharing on this common topic and a mutually shared perspective.