Thanks for taking the time to comment. You know I think the toughest part of this is the period of transition, mostly as it relates to the uncertainty of how things will eventually resolve.
I think a host of other things I did not include in my blog played into this as well: death of significant family members, I am about to celebrate my birthday which would place me at the same age as my father when he died and an initial diagnosis of Chrons Disease I received earlier this year, that was discovered to be a misdiagnosis after scoping my GI. I think in many ways, the focus of just dealing with the present did not give me ample time to reflect upon my own needs.
One thing this experience did do is make me rethink the value of my time and what I am willing to trade for it. It is sure to be interesting times for a bit.
Some of the hardest times we've had, as a family, are where our best memories have come from. :)