I honestly cried while reading your comment.
This sounds so much like me
I am by no means an expert. I have tried and failed A LOT over the years or learning how to live with my conditions. My official diagnosis is PTSD, major depression/bi-polar I (I don't get manic I have severe lows) generalized anxiety disorder and social anxiety disorder.
One that I have hid from most of the world because I am person that they need to see strong and have everything in place and successful.
I have shied away from most of my closest friends and have resorted to the excuse of being busy while often escaping into the world of video games and books.
It means so much for you to reach out like this and say I am worthy.
I am still crying as I type these words and at a lost at what to say aside from thank you.
Aww. It is so hard when others don't understand. I usually know when I'm in trouble when I lose interest in reading and playing games. I had started art therapy and really like it. I never seem to have time for it. I know it's crucial for me to do something of the above. Lately, Steemit has been my outlet. I have found it very cathartic. One of my mom's 'things' was 'Never put anything into writing, it can be used against you.' So I had that obstacle. I decided that I would just be me on here and if people don't like it, it's their problem.
I know it's hard to hear you're worthy when you have been through what you have been through. You really are. It's people like your matriarch and my sperm-donor that are not worthy of us. We are beautiful and we deserve so much more than we were given.
I feel bad that you're crying but I understand that too. I try to take everything moment by moment. If I have had a bad day, we'll see what tomorrow brings.
💜💜💜 You're very welcome 🙂
She's amazing right Mave?! You are worthy my friend.