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Actually, too many failures made me try do everything ( I mean reprogramming & getting rid of all garbage ), so by trying I did SL many times and SM Dance 3 times...You could not believe what is happening...like in Your story, up and down through the time, here through consciousness...The message is from all that and Your story ( part of it as I see ), whatever You do, come to the point to be satisfied by Your present...

I think we are on the same wavelength! There is lot to work through when you do those kind of things. Is it something you would do again?