Oh you make my heart ache with your scorn from societal dictates of vanity. Weight is such a complicated thing. ...so much more to it than we think. I urge you my friend to take hold of your livelihoods and keep faith. Our transient bodies reflect what we neglect in our souls. If you feel you are unhealthy then nourish your soul. I am sure you have passions that you could ignite. They can take you beyond trivial concerns of weight. Keep in mind there was a time when weight was a symbol of wealth and strength and not vanity. I know in this day and age health is a main concern of course but keep in thought that your outer shell is trivial in the true scope of things. You are more than that. Find that more and live it. seek what makes you rejoice and live in that abundance. It will bring you to peace and health.