Funny how traveling around can really make you realize what you really want in life. I am glad that you can relate and it helped you to heal some. This has been incredibly hard for me to write about because the whole time I've been feeling like a failure with all of steemit as my audience. Truth is I know I am not a failure, because I never gave up. I pushed forward until I found a place to call home, and getting up when you fall is not failing, its actually succeeding. I was just hoping to continue my journey of following my dreams and blogging about it to give other people hope. Turns out the universe has different plans for me othere than being a beach bum for the rest of my life. That was a huge hit on my ego and hard for me to deal with so I turned to eating food and drinking liquor to cope for while. But now that I have found a home I am working on getting back on top of my health and ready for the next chapter of my life.
Thanks for sharing your story with me, its always nice to hear other people have gone through similar things and come out on top. ;)
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I totally understand, more than you can know. My husband has been going through this exact same thing since we decided to nix the sailboat life. Living on a sailboat was something he dreamed of since he was 13, something his father wanted to do but never could. We managed to do it, but it became quickly obvious that it wasn't sustainable for us for many reasons.
Even though we had the boat and had amazing adventures that never would have happened any other way, it didn't last (almost 2 years) but He took that very personally as a failure of his very being and is just now starting to come out of the haze of self flagellation (with the food, escapism and liquor as well) to the point that it really wreaked havoc on our life and our marriage.
We also grew up in the midwest (Iowa) so I really can relate to SO much of what you've done!