Wow your writing is reaching me on a deep, deep level. I feel it. I'm a 2/4 in human design and a projector. Being alone after a break up that left me in a really hard spot has been quite challenging. Before the separation I feel as tho I was really becoming aware of what was conditioning and my not self, and what was outside energies. I have been experiencing different things but along similarities. I have been feeling the collectives energies. They're quite heavy and really sad. As soon as I'm out in public now I'm avoiding plugging in and making eye contact with most people so I don't take on to much of their energy. If I do soend time with others who are not suited, the Rollercoaster rise starts all over again. I've been down the same rabbitholes and "conspiracy theories" for about 2 years now and I honestly have needed a break, as its such an information overload. I've just been hiking and doing my inner work to try and stay balanced. I understand that feeling of not having the capacity to reach for life, with open arms so to speak, as I once did either. I'm still learning about human design and still don't know that much about it. I do know that being a 2/4 is the hermit. So these times of being separated and alone from the masses has actually been quite helpful. Except when I'm unable to be around those who I resonate with and feel full. The right generators.
Thank you for sharing.
your welcome. and thank you for the feedback. it's a wonderful reward of its own to hear/know that this resonated in such a way, and I dearly treasure it. 🙏😇
Indeed, the collective psyche is pretty dense and intense in these times. Quite alot of wisdom to filter through what we may be picking up, amplifying and distorting through our open centers. With the conspiracy stuff, I've definitely been observing the not-self/shadow stuff playing out in my open head (distractions with info from every direction), open spleen (amplifying certain fears), heart & ajna (trying to prove certainty). And it's been tough to navigate, as it has seemed like a correct response to engage with much of it - though often ending up spinning out with too much. The upside/wisdom: greater ability to discern weaknesses in many arguments and see where much of the drama is merely the amplification & distortion of fragments of truth rather than the whole objective picture.
T'is a pleasure to encounter more riding the Human Design wave here! Please do consider coming to join and contribute in the Human Design community here. Just getting rolling, but would be great to have you sharing, should it feel correct for you... 🥂
(p.s. also cool to see you're not that far away. I bet there are some pretty nice hikes around Kamloops this time of year. 🙂)