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5 years ago in #life by rok-sivante (77)
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I have always believed that selflessness annihilates everything: love, work, life. As beings who seek to survive, we cling to moments, situations, people, that keep us alive. When I read your experience in Bali, I feel that this is a chapter that is not finished, and that many of the things you have done afterwards come to fill the emptiness that exists there. Like an obese person who eats to forget, sometimes we begin to consume things, information, ideas, to cover the blank space in our lives. Perhaps in recent months you have traveled a path that looked from afar, now, does not sound much. However, if it's any consolation, I must confess that thanks to your publications I've learned things I never heard before. I know that from the ground, the sky looks huge and impossible, but if you get up and do what you love, fix music, write, you will surely touch souls. I hug you hard, @rok-sivante
What can I say to accompany you in this hour? I can only hear and read you. Let you know that all this chaos and disorder in you today is necessary for what is coming, for the "reconstruction of your inner world. This is a stage, so do not stay in it. If you were here, we would go to the sea and listen to the sound of the waves. Wherever you are, the rumour and smell of the Bali Sea will accompany you. Speaking of the sea, there's a poem by Gabriela Mistral that says:
Opening your eyes can be a wonderful experience, but there are days that are hard to bear. Aren't there? Take care of yourself, @rok-sivante
I think you're on top of it with everything you say/write already. Your comments always serve as a nourishment or salve to the soul.
This last bit, merely hearing/reading was enough. And I do appreciate it.
And having passed through that moment... the last comment has been updated accordingly... lol 😎🥂
Wow your writing is reaching me on a deep, deep level. I feel it. I'm a 2/4 in human design and a projector. Being alone after a break up that left me in a really hard spot has been quite challenging. Before the separation I feel as tho I was really becoming aware of what was conditioning and my not self, and what was outside energies. I have been experiencing different things but along similarities. I have been feeling the collectives energies. They're quite heavy and really sad. As soon as I'm out in public now I'm avoiding plugging in and making eye contact with most people so I don't take on to much of their energy. If I do soend time with others who are not suited, the Rollercoaster rise starts all over again. I've been down the same rabbitholes and "conspiracy theories" for about 2 years now and I honestly have needed a break, as its such an information overload. I've just been hiking and doing my inner work to try and stay balanced. I understand that feeling of not having the capacity to reach for life, with open arms so to speak, as I once did either. I'm still learning about human design and still don't know that much about it. I do know that being a 2/4 is the hermit. So these times of being separated and alone from the masses has actually been quite helpful. Except when I'm unable to be around those who I resonate with and feel full. The right generators.
Thank you for sharing.
your welcome. and thank you for the feedback. it's a wonderful reward of its own to hear/know that this resonated in such a way, and I dearly treasure it. 🙏😇
Indeed, the collective psyche is pretty dense and intense in these times. Quite alot of wisdom to filter through what we may be picking up, amplifying and distorting through our open centers. With the conspiracy stuff, I've definitely been observing the not-self/shadow stuff playing out in my open head (distractions with info from every direction), open spleen (amplifying certain fears), heart & ajna (trying to prove certainty). And it's been tough to navigate, as it has seemed like a correct response to engage with much of it - though often ending up spinning out with too much. The upside/wisdom: greater ability to discern weaknesses in many arguments and see where much of the drama is merely the amplification & distortion of fragments of truth rather than the whole objective picture.
T'is a pleasure to encounter more riding the Human Design wave here! Please do consider coming to join and contribute in the Human Design community here. Just getting rolling, but would be great to have you sharing, should it feel correct for you... 🥂
(p.s. also cool to see you're not that far away. I bet there are some pretty nice hikes around Kamloops this time of year. 🙂)
Was it before the social distancing, or do you feel like part of it can be attributed to the whole Covid thing. I know a lot of us feel like we are living in the movie Groundhog Day right now. Get up eat sleep, repeat.
Before. The last moment I saw Nia really feels like the turning point.
The whole social distancing / isolation thing honestly hasn't been that big of a deal in my life, as I've already been in hermit mode for years. Though I do sorta feel like I've been getting cabin fever lately and could really use a good friend or two to connect with face-to-face to vent all this stuff out to.
I can understand and respect that!