I just want to admit... God. I Hate my Career. I'm not for that world and i can't even push me into that, no matter how I try. I is soppoused to be an interesting one... But I dont love it, and I can't escape from it. It keeps making me down, because i try to convince myself that I can do this, but when i fail or turns out that i'm useless to some task, it just make me sad. But it shouldn't... This is something that i cannot enjoy and still pass the subjects.
Do whathever you feel correct to study. To live. Dont hurt anyone, just be happy finding who you are and working with that to be whoever you want to be, but be aware of the important paths that are in front of you. Dont be a bodyguard if you like plants. Dont hide yourself because fear. Fear will took years from you.
We cannot escape fear, but we dont have to live trought it.