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It's interesting, because now that I'm aware that I would live for someone, I can't let myself die for them either. I can't go back into that "forever waiting" for them to figure shit out phase. I just have to keep living and have faith that the seeds were planted to help her grow into higher consciousness. Just like she was used to raise my consciousness, I have to believe that the things I said, the letters I wrote, and all of the shit that I said that didn't even make sense to me at the time. It all adds up to the ability for her to choose to live too. Maybe that is how I helped her. It doesn't have to make sense to me. Just shut up and trust it and don't hold myself back for anyone that isn't living authentically.