Hello @rok-sivante,
Without the shadows you can't appreciate the light. I've lost count of how many times I was the bad guy in a story, even in some I've told myself over the past several years. I feel that in order to really understand toxicity, you must be able to see it in yourself to be able to see it in others as well. It's the knowledge that provides the sight.
Two sides of one coin is what makes "oneness" even a thing, not the blantant disregard for our own darkness. I think that...
...would be insanity.
But we see it everyday. So much that it's become the societal norm to tunnel-vision our surroundings, seeing only which is pleasant. That, I feel—may be a definition of toxicity.
This post was refreshing c:
With love,
@shello
I wanna say “good to have you back,” although that’d feel weird as I haven’t been around much either and am feeling like getting the fuck out of here most of the time. Lol.
I guess another way of saying it would be that your comment was as refreshing as you found the post. This obviously came from the darker, lower waves/cycles, and while I sorta expecting it to be too much for most people, it was nice seeing that at least one person gets it.
💓
Fair enough, why not call it de ja vu—doesn't this feel a little familiar? I've read your previous post regarding Steemit's choice to "reroute" some rewards from authors, and a lot has gone on since leaving. At the very least, you are keeping tabs and catching up on the time you may have missed being around.
Glad to hear that my reply found its way to your inner world. In a land where everyone is trying to be their best self, you've taken a good step back to identify the flaws which we all carry, but for one reason or another don't admit. You are someone who wears their shortcomings proudly knowing that in order to know what is right, you also have to be able to take an honest look at what's wrong.
I can definitely imagine a few people getting triggered thinking; "oh that's definitely not who I am" lmao. Turning a blind eye away from what they want to see, completely missing the lesson!
tl;dr
Thank you Rok, it's good to be back! 💖
Now I remember why I liked you & your writing so much. 🥰
💜💕💜
Nice to find this mind provoking article at divine time and right on point reply from @shello
I just recently had to admit to myself that toxic people are a huge and important part in my quite exciting life so far and used to be a subconscious choice to face my own issues. There cannot be light without knowing the darkness or let’s say that you better become a good friend for your own demons.
I will probably always feel an attraction to “toxicity” and instead of walking away, I wish to DETOX together.
I never chose the easy path .....
Happy New Year Rok 🌺🍀⭕️
@mammasitta damn right. By ignoring and hating our own shadows we lose any remaining hope that we may have. To some of my friends in the past, I have been the toxic one... and sometimes also the one to receive an apology when perspectives change. Toxicity is a bizarre state of mind!
Sometimes it worth the effort to stay... not often, but there truly are ways to cleanse together. Time and patience.
Why choose the boring way? c;
I just posted this quote the other day at my Instagram and it fits kind of well to your reply and rounds up my thoughts and lessons I am learning everyday. I have to get rid of such immense anger I still feel deep inside, including a toxic mind but at least I finally understand why it’s there. Break outs are not so much needed to find my “detoxed“ balance. ........I really like you ! 😻
This resonates with me possibly more than I ever could convey. We always want the knowledge, without having to go through the lesson. Everything that has happened needed to be this way, in order for the me to to grow and become the person I am now.
Sometimes it really sucked, but I would not trade it.
♥ Thank you @mammasitta you are a sweetheart, -@shello