@briancourteau I think you and @lynncoyle1 have come to learn how much I care about the 2 of you. I wish I could take the pain away. I wish you the peace you both seek. You still need each other. There's a reason you're still with us. So you're not going to be winning Miss America this year. I bet you're filling someone's heart with joy, love and laughter. I know it's hard right now and realistically it's probably not going to get better. The love you to have for each other is what you need to focus on. Sorry, you're stuck with her. I know you want her to go off and be happy, if she left she'd be so miserable. I know she has the boys...it's not the same as you as the memories and actually touching and holding you. There is a part of most women, the want to take care of those they love no matter what it is. I know she doesn't want to see you in pain either. I imagine she feels so helpless right now.
I know it sounds crazy if they want to give you morphine and that would help ease the pain, do it. Nothing saying you have to take the full dose. Take just enough to keep it bearable. I know that stuff knocks you silly, but if you can ease the pain just a bit it would be a lot of pressure off of both of you. I don't blame you a bit for the no hospital. I would want the same, in fact it is something my husband I have discussed in the past. I don't want to run up unnecessary bills. I don't want anyone to watch me die lying in a hospital bed. I don't want that to be everyone's last memory of me. I know you don't want Lynn's last memory of you to be this. From my perspective, it will be a very small part. I'm sure she's going to focus more on what you mean to her than anything else. Hang in there 💟
Thanks Lynns Pal ....lol.........I really am thankful she has you all here and I am still fighting just growing more weary and exhausted..I cannot have morphne unless I go nto hospital........Anyway thanks for the words and thoughts and I think of you often as well.
Thank you @tryskele! It's amazing how we can care for each other after such a short time knowing each other, but this story of ours seems to have brought you to us, and for that I am eternally grateful.
No, Brian may not be winning a beauty pageant haha, but he's still beautiful in my eyes, and you seem to understand it all so perfectly! Thank you for trying to convey that to Brian !
I believe paths are meant to cross at certain times, whether for support, to teach us a lesson or fill a hole we didn't know we had. I think the best part is, through a forum like this it's raw and real. No pretense. I am very grateful that the 2 of you have come into my life too. <3