It took me a long time to brake up with my first boyfriend, we were a couple for six years, but after six months I wasn't happy anymore. But I thought it would hurt him too much if I broke up, even if he hurt me in many ways. In the end, a good book and my husband helped me to end this misery. My ex was hurt and for the first time in his live turned to drugs, but not because he lost someone he loved, but he lost someone he considered property, a trophy. I think he never really loved me, but used me right from the beginning. I had to end the relationship, or somewhen, I fear, I would have ended my life. No one is worth this.