This is interesting...
Heya @binkyprod, welcome to the fiesta! Now I could be mistaken, but I believe that we may be talking about two different things here. I believe that the reason my memory was starting to lapse is due to the fact that my body needed me to be able to move onto the next day and not to be possessed by my past.
I'm far past the emotional healing stage of anything at this point. It's not like my memories disappear permanently or anything like that. It's more like I could more easily recall what I ate last month as opposed to a day or two ago. When I watch my memories, I'm already disassociated. I can still emotionally connect to the memories I enjoy, but I can analyze my negative situations better and see new perspectives without getting dragged down in the first-person recall of them.
"But it's scary to think how much I forgot and might never remember due to the trauma he caused and the brain manipulation he did to me."
Try imagining what it's like believing that you have good memory, and then becoming aware of your ignorance. That's terrifying.
Thank you for the well wishes regardless~
Mahalo,
@shello
Oh okay. Yeah, there is a difference there I was not quite grasping earlier. It's very interesting to know about your situation and how you deal with it.
Thank you @binkypod,
I was also drawn to your story as well. I used to not see memory this way before, and always wondered how something could be forgotten. <3
Memory is a strange thing. I'm glad to have connected with you :)
It truly is. The pleasure was all mine! c: