I never said nobody could understand me. In fact, I am pretty sure most people out there could definitely understand me, like an open book. I feel like every time I open my mouth or simply walk past someone that person can already say that I'm lonely, that I'm bitter, that I'm cold and that it's probably for the best to stay away from me.
It's me who can't understand others, no matter how hard I try. No wonder why I avoid interacting with others if someone talking to me already sets my blood boiling and increases my heartbeat ten times. I feel like they might throw a punch at me at any moment so I instinctively cower and start policing my every thought before I say it outloud. Then that other person can see I am visibly disturbed and so they back away. And it's like this every time.