I wonder how the thousands of mcg of lsd, ounces of mushrooms, pounds of cannabis, grams of ketamine, dmt, and other unmentionables assisted my survival strategies 🤔
It's my postulation that psychotropics, psychedelics, and well basically being a druggy served to attenuate or at least help me to better cope with the onslaught of sober life perception...
Finding a balance between the highs and lows, dependency, addiction, and not checking in permanently to crazy town has been challenging to say the least...
I'm just going to go ahead and say the forced institutions of the "well adjusted" aren't the most conducive environments for those that have a more osmotic filter than most.
It seems that there's a rather fine line where highly sensitive could bleed nto aspergers, the autism spectrum, manic, bi-polar, even the schizophrenic realm.
I consider myself to be a high functioning sociopath that has just learned to be more chameleon than most.. Fortunately, for everyone I'm no longer self medicating with anything too wild n crazy..
The fear and loathing approach doesn't have the longevity I now seek...
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You PRETEND to be nice? I am just gonna go with you ARE. Fear and loathing does not make for a useful life.
Yeah i totally think we went for ALL the defence strategies in our drug days to haze the stimuli. And all the walls.
We should never measure ourselves against others. Sadly, we realise this far later than we should xx
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Yeah, I'm not really a sociopath. I can be naturally gregarious and nothing is more taxing to me than pretending to be present when I'm not feeling the vibes.
It's strange though how my journey from feeling like I've got zero in common with 93% of humans has shown me that was a lie I liked to tell myself..
Ultimately I realised the attributes I thought I despised in others only bother me because i see myself in their process of self actualization...
Let me clarify I'm still having these realisations and don't always act as if I know better. Even when I'm knowingly feeding the false security of separation I'm well aware it's a sham. I readily admit I thrive on the drama and can't exactly explain my justifications to willingly choose to not rise above the misdirected hostility.. It's in my nature to stir shit up haha..
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