It's ok. We all have feelings, we are all human. Your post allows those of us who have experienced a loss. My condolences and best wishes to your healing.
#improv has always been there to help me with my anxiety. even just going to an improv show, being around others, quietly watching fun shows, laughing in a room with others. crying in the dark at something touching. Art and Theater remind us of our humanity. Maybe, may I suggest, a living arts show: Music, Theater, Comedy, Improv.
If you ever have any questions about improv, you can find me on discord (jacobts). Wishing you love and blessings. Wishing you all the very best.
At the moment, I can't imagine going to a live show, but I will keep your suggestion in mind if I find such available with a VERY small group of people. Before the anxiety became so debilitating, I did enjoy the occasional concert or theatre production. Thank you for your suggestion and the comforting words!