Your resilient spirit is an inspiration and a valuable message for everyone, not just those feeling the pain of life. As I've said many times here and in life, the key to success is simply to keep trudging forward when it seems that you cannot or will not.
Stay true to yourself and take solace in the love and support from those who know and love you. Know that there are many here in Steem who hold you in our thoughts and prayers... Keep the faith, man.