Your poem sounds like what young men at your age feel like. But take heart, your life will change soon when you graduate. Too young to be older and too old to be younger. That is life unfortunately. Have a good day tomorrow and enjoy your present moment! :D
Yeah it hopefully will. But I've seen with my older brothers that they are still at home at age 21 and still dependent.
Ethan, just because your brothers are still at home does not mean that you can't live a very independent and joy filled life. Never let anything stop you from doing what you feel makes you happy and free. Only your own doubts or fears can stop you. Be free and present and you will find your own life path! :D