I am not the author of the tale, merely the protagonist. This neither makes me responsible for your read, nor fails to make me responsible for my own. Thus your characterization of me as being borrowed is no more than projection of your own failure to master yourself.
As usual, the balance of your comment simply repeats your complete confounding of cause and effect, apparently in a quest to justify your abject subservience to masters you are compelled by your servile nature to worship.
When you were a child you were fed, instructed in living, and required to obey.
You are not a child anymore. It's time to stop acting like one. Now you must make your own decisions, and bear the responsibility for the consequences. Grow into your power, or deliver it to those you grovel before.
Slaves and children have neither authority nor responsibility. As long as you remain mastered you remain a slave. It seems fear and a servile nature has prevented you from becoming a man as you should, and thus you remain dependent on your 'betters' as a child is on their parents.
Take heart, and responsibility for yourself. You will do no worse than your masters who despise you. Truly, your only chance to improve your lot is to undertake command of yourself as is proper. As long as you serve masters you abandon relevance when adults are talking, because you only impart what you have been commanded rather than your own words in your own voice.
Men do not take counsel from children, nor the free from slaves.
It is remarkable how humanists redefine words to rationalise their failed ideology. Rebellion is "freedom," ingratitude "maturity," entitlements "rights," malcontented over-reach "progress." Black is white and up is down. Fulfilling duties and obligations is "groveling," while neglecting one's purpose is "responsibility." The humanist West will be delivered unto the deserving masters of their hubris and gluttony. What you wish will not be what you want.