It's hard to think about and put into words that make sense isn't it? Ha.
'Humility Is Knowing your Place and Taking your Place'- Yes I was thinking along the lines of what you said which was- accepting the truth of who we really are and doing the things intended for us. For me, I spent so many years working very hard for other people in jobs that mean nothing to me, that do not match up with my goals or aspirations, my personality, i just do them because i need to earn money. Now, i believe each of us has free will, but each of us is also somewhat tangled in fate too. So where I have been focusing all of my energy into my career which I didn't even want it sort of happened by accident, which was not in line with my try self, I have felt much resistance inside and have struggled as is outlined in my blog. But you just carry on because we are scared to take the leap of faith into the unknown. Although I did progress well on that path there seemed to me many obstacles i had to over come, and over the years little doors have opened here or there, or people have entered my life to try and show me the correct path, but at the time i did not see it and i missed the opportunity, that was my free will. And look how i ended up? Back in this pit of depression yet again. When that lesson of humility happened, it was a catalyst for me, a big one, which resulted in much introspection. I saw and started to piece together things I had missed, doors which opened which were nothing to do with my efforts, and wondered who opened them? How did that situation arise? Who governs these things if not always us? My personal power sense felt much less diminished, and a realisation that I actually should be doing something totally different, but how on earth do i get there? How do i make it work? After much turmoil and worrying and thinking about things far too much, just going a little more with the flow and acceptance of- I want to follow the path which is in line with my truest and highest self, things are starting to happen. Momentum is starting to build, and i realise that i have the choice to do whatever i want, but i think my path would be much easier if i took the one that 'fits' me, rather than if i stayed in the management route for the sake of a well paying job and good social status, i would face much resistance on that path trying to swing me back to where my try talents lie. Does that make sense?
No it does not mean i cannot strive to be better or great, it just means- taking your place, stepping off the path which you feel deep down is so wrong for you, and just being true to your self and what you really want to achieve with no fear, which is hard, it takes time. But yes totally taking your place in whatever form that may be, and combining your efforts with whatever unseen force seems to be out there guiding us on our journeys.
Our emotions, all of them, positive and negative as we call them, are not problems that need to be medicated in most cases, there are cases of genetic imbalances and i do not refer to these, but for the most part they are our inner guidance system that is screaming at us and we don't even know this. We just grow to despise the ones that really challenge us and think there is something wrong, i have realised that i ended up feeling so low and anxious because i spent too log ignoring my guiding system, to a point where it's a problem and i have battles like this, but i am taking full responsibility for it, i am trying to navigate my way out of it.
Thanks for that wonderful explanation! What would I call you?
Can I know your first name, if you don't mind?
Anyways, I like this line of you:
That unseen force you mentioned maybe the work of your guardian angel, as I could predict it based on my faith, knowledge and experience.
When things get wrong and seems that we've done all our best, and still we fail, to the point of hopelessness, that's the right and perfect time unseen force comes to an aid.
I remember when I was working the year 1998.
I was fixing the door of an elevator in a sugarcane factory, when suddenly after fixing it, the elevator got stuck and could no longer function. I went to the main panel on the top floor that made me bathed my own sweat. I tried checking the connections over and over again, but the elevator was still not moving. It took me about 1-2 hours to fix it but nothing really happened. I sat down and bowed my head, and almost cried. I said, "What must I do?"
After that question, I just tried again to check the connection, and I heard the door of the elevator closing, and it was working!
That was one of my experiences I could remember.