I have been diagnosed with PTSD a year ago, because of a traumatic experience 12 years ago. So basically, I was struggling for years, being confused what the hell was happening to me, as my mind would also protect me by forgetting details of that particular event. Now that I know I have PTSD, I still get confused from time to time because I noticed I get triggered all of a sudden in a particular day of the month. I didn't know that a menstrual cycle can have an effect to this, maybe I need to check myself from time to time for me to be able to at least prepare myself when it comes.. Thank you for sharing your experience cos I learned something! I am grateful you already found the man who's understanding and caring. Stay strong! @binkyprod
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Thank you.
Yes, forgetfulness in regards to details or downright full days during the time of trauma is normal. I didn't always have the words to explain what was happening to me either. The knowledge is so empowering because it helps the healing.
There were moments I had lived that I had completely forgotten. Just the other day, something happened, my hair got caught, I felt it pull, and it triggered me. Then I remembered something I had completely forgotten, me literally pulling my hair out in response to something the abuser had done, at his apartment, and I had pulled so much hair out. My thought after the initial remembered thought was "I'd love to have that hair on my head right now considering I'm still shedding more than is normal." It's amazing how there are still things I remember now that my brain had cast aside.
What has helped me to bring forward memories I was ready and capable of dealing with, gently, without forcing the memory triggers, is EFT tapping therapy. Progress is really gradual and I wish I had started a lot sooner than I did, but it makes remembering and dealing with the emotions from the past trauma a lot more ... what's the word... less of a struggle and more of a relief.