Wow.
You know I think it's not a big deal. Guys get rejected by their wife's all the time. It happens to me most of the time.
The fact that you look at this whole situation in this way, really shows what an amazing wife you must have been. It is important for men to be loved in a sexual way particularly in a way that women usually do not understand.
I only hope you have or will find a new partner and finish an hopefully amazing life with your family.