What a lovely, honest post about something so personal as your own personal sexuality. You already know how I feel about sex-positivity, I appreciate your willingness to share your story with the community.
She, the doctor, was attractive and had me on all fours doing kegels. I was extremely embarrassed but I ot the jist of what she was saying and after 2 visits i started to unlock the magic of my vagina.
Kegels, along with other solo activities, are so helpful in understanding the states of contraction/tension, as well as relaxation that is so vital in understanding how we may experience vaginal penetration, and partners of either sex can join in! I wish all homework was as fun! ;)
To be honest I still dong have full control. If im not feeling it, im not feeling it. I think sometimes i was trying to force myself to have sex when what i wanted was love.