i can fully relate. trips are so long ago that i sometimes forget how immensely important they were. but when other people were around those trips were mostly uncomfortable. but enriching, especially the bad trips.
nowadays i feel similar. a lot of cynicism to anything related to the world and the matrix, all those artificial constructs and how stubborn and ignorant people are, clinging onto them like it was a law of nature.
what helps me is not to confuse myself with my cynicism. it's only one of the many (worldly-indoctrinated) ego voices. what is useful then is to give that voice a name or title and treat it as your pet dog. it is merely trying to warn you and remind you that your path is right in stark opposition to the fake road most travelled by so many.
the issue is, that pet ego dog voice cannot communicate in a neutral way,it is hopelessly negative in its utterances... but it does mean well and is only trying to protect his master. in a semi-tragic manner.
Oh thanks this is very helpful. For some reason I had never seen that voice as one of many and I had given it some kind of stellar protagonism.
Like, I know that the dialogues in my head are all just ego and am able to discard them if they're not being useful, but that particular voice I thought of as the real one, "the seeker".
Very grateful for your insight, I've got something new to work with now 🙏
i am glad!
i wrote a post on that insight a while back but can't find it anymore on peakd...
ironically that idea came as a revelation at the end of an acid trip on a psy festival, ahahhaa.
blessings!
hey i found the article!
i remembered it wrong,
it did come from david hawkins but it has helped me out tremendously.
https://peakd.com/spirituality/@paradigmprospect/lifehacks-for-the-mind-or-part-4-your-ego-is-not-your-enemy
blessings dude
Good stuff, thank you for sharing, it is really on spot