My life before way before Steemit was a nightmare.
9 and 1/2 months ago I was readying myself to end my life. I had given up on myself. I had failed my Mother, Sister, Brother, Wife, and especially myself. The culmination of 7 years of abusing myself with drugs. I was at a point in my life where I could no longer go on using drugs anymore, it didn't help the pain of the life I had created around me and I could not live without them because I forgot how.
I wished and prayed for death regularly
My wife would always be angry with me and the last couple of months before I quit she had stopped talking to me. She had given up on me. My Mother was sick with Alzheimers and I could not even talk to her anymore. She had forgotten me. My wife's family well, they hated me. I don't think they hated me because of what I was doing to myself but more because of what I was doing to her daughter. I turned her into a nervous wreck.
My wife would say after a few months of being clean and in Recovery. She was just waiting to come home from work to find me dead from an Overdose. I was so selfish.
I made it it into Recovery and and have been fighting for my life ever since a few days short of 10 months, it amazing how much a year can change things.
The day I found a new set of
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I was a fairly ordinary day just about 2 and 1/2 months ago, I was doing my daily youtube video search for new and interesting things and I saw something in the comments about this site that Pays you to post blogs and Videos!!
I could not believe it. My skeptical mind kept saying to me don't bother with it. Stick with Flakebook and Gootube. Even though they were censoring and shutting down people left and right. ahhhhhhhaaaa I remember which video it was from it was from @lukewearechange where I first heard of steemit. So based upon his credibility I checked it out.
I felt like Dorothy in the wizard of Oz. It was all new and people were friendly, not like youtube. I was amazed!!
@surpassinggoogle
So it had been about a week and I manage to get about 6 sbd from a funny star wars lip sync video.. but that was it. Then I wrote a post on the opiate crisis here in Vancouver and I got a big vote from no one else but @surpassinggoogle. I found someone with whom seemed to like the things I wrote
in a sea of no votes, I felt like a king...I got a big vote. It actually made my day. I ran around all day at the recovery center telling everyone they need to join this site, and there is this guy, and you can make $$, etc. lol
I am sure you all who are like me with steemit know the drill.
From then on I felt I had an ally, a friend, someone other than a bot that cared about what I said.
UNTALENTED
Then came the first untalented initiative. I saw that this thing was going to be big. but you see as a recovering addict I tend to suffer from self pity and poor self esteem at times. So in a contest where there are NO losers, I almost didn't bother. In fact I will be honest. I half hearted it. I felt my special little place in the steemit universe dissapearing before my eyes. So I went ahead and posted this: who am I , and because @surpassinggoogle is such an amazing human and the untalented initiative is so amazing I still got like 6 sbd.
I probably should have got nothing
but there are no losers, only winners. My saving grace. Well if I could have done it again. I would have done it live this. Redemption
Today
I am growing within the steemit community. I don't have a whole lot of time to be on here.But when I can, I am. Honestly there is no place I would rather be. Steemit has given some wings to this poor lost soul trying to find himself and keep moving forward. I love this place, this place and discord Steemgigs. This place is a key to my Recovery and I know now that God has given me this gift to help me grow as a person, a writer, and to help me get out some of the toxicity that has been killing me for so many years.
Thank you Steemit, Thank you Steemians, Thank you Steemgigs, and Thank you @surpassinggoogle.
I love you all. You are helping me, save my own life.
wonderful story~ thank you for sharing this.
You've come long way from where you started and keep it up.
Steemit can really change lives <3
Your story is really touching. I've been reading Most untalented contest entries and i must say that steemit is really impacting lives. It was really smart of @surpassinggoogle to create this competition. it's really eye opening.
Nice to know that Steemit is bringing good changes in peoples life. I think @ned will be proud reading your story.
Thank you my friend!
Yet another soul saved. steemit to the rescue, and this is the begining of many more testimonies in our lives through this initiative of Untalented. I'm really happy for you, sir. what other things or measures could not solve in years, steemit did in less than three months.
Steemit is definitely a great community to be in and from everyone that I have encountered so far has only good things to say about you. Lots of good thoughts going your way.
Wow....thats so touching....thank God for steemit. .....happy for you too.....
The most beautiful of all, is that there is always a way of salvation, and this is love.
Big hug for you.
:) Thank you. Sometimes the way to true salvation is through hell, cause that is where I felt I was for many years and my poor wife. I put her through Unimaginable terror of the fear of finding her husband dead every day she went to work.
Yes, sometimes humans have to hit bottom and then float.
Inside there is always a force that is love for yourself, for life.
You're afloat, stay there. Grab that love.
This is amazing! I am so happy for you that you got to save yourself from your own inner demons and are working on improving yourself. Steemit is definitely a great community to be in and from everyone that I have encountered so far has only good things to say about you. Lots of good thoughts going your way.
Congratulations for the life change. Here is a vote to help out. Keep moving forward, I'm glad you found Steemit!
I do have struggle in steemit same as yours,
well if you are in Recovery keep the faith it does get better, if not.. Try it out..if your life was like mine it could not get much worse. God bless you!
You can lead the ship to good port, grab the hand of God. A hug
Holding with both hands. God runs this ship now. When I start to steer I always crash it somewhere.
You have an amazing testimony and this is also written. I loved reading your success story and I'm so glad you found steemit!! My husband is also an example of transformation out of addiction. :) If you're interested here's my latest post. Maybe you would identify with it (if not you, your wife since everything is from my point of view haha) https://steemit.com/family/@snowpea/wedding-day
Wow! Very positive news about the steemit community. Steemit is a life saver. And I totally agree with you about the general good vibe here on steemit. No cyber bullying like other social media sites. When people have a strong purpose towards lifting a community then vices are minimal. Long live steemit!
@steem-untalented
nice work not only on Steemit but in your own life there fellow Canuck.
Congratulations for the life change, happy for you. resteemed :)
Thank you my friend! I thank God for the change, I just had to be willing.
Thanks for the resteem, Cheers!
Very beautiful word! Life
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Bro, soon i will have space for talk. Yes, Jehovah God is everything. Keep on doing good deeds and stay human. Flaws allowed. Welcome to the #untalented family.
You can go through this post as well!
https://steemit.com/untalented/@steem-untalented/the-most-historical-human-bot-account-for-organic-human-curation-by-the-untalented-family
@surpassinggoogle Thank you my friend. I am a very sensitive human and get attached to people who are special and doing good things. It motivates me to get better. I look forward to talking to you 1 to 1 sometime. but I am grateful for the time I get to talk and interact with you. You may not know it, but you are my mentor here, :)bI love you bro!
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So e.g if Bill Gates did Microsoft and i can do Macro-hard, arent we both genius? Oh, we both are! Showcase your talents regardless of its nature freely with us in #untalented. Relegate all reservations as flaws are allowed and we sift even the so-called nonsense to find sense therein.
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Thank you for sharing such a powerful story about your own personal recovery from addiction and depression! It takes a lot of courage to be open about things like that, especially on such a wide open platform as the internet. You're right though, the people on Steemit, I've found, are much nicer than the typical user base on Facebook or YouTube. I've only been around for about a week and a half myself, but already I've been spending more and more of my time every day on here because the community is just that good! I wish you even more success with Steemit and with your own personal life as well!
yes this is a beautiful place. I love it so much. I hope you stick around Please add me as a friend, and lets support each other on the way to success.
God bless you @rodeo670
I wish you safe and fast recovery.Hello @steveblack I am glad you found joy here on steemit. Thanks to @ned and all other wonderful people on this platform.
@learnandteach01
Thank you so very much. I am a fighter and I don't want that life I had. It was a total nightmare, I couldnt wake up from. I am glad I have met you because you are one of the wonderful people on steemit.!
God bless you!
And God bless you too friend. How about your wife now?
@learnandteach01 surprizingly enough she has completely forgiven me it wouls seem, but with that being said, there is a undertone of anger, distrust, and fear that this may just be temporary which it definately is not.but I understand the fear. All I can do is keep showing her that this is real by our every interaction, staying clean, keeping my word about staying in treatment for 1 year. :)
:)