Most of my steem was earned by being a low-paid laborer and converting my suffering into steem at prices higher than the prevailing rate. I can't say I'm too sympathetic to the fear of not being able to live off of steem earnings, but I can say that if you release yourself from that sort of thought, you can say whatever you want here.
I don't really know shit about anything in life, but some things I believe are: trying to get everybody to like you is a losing battle, you're better off catering to your base(even if it's a minority of mutants), money can't prevent you from eventually dying(so making yourself unhappy to get is probably isn't worth it), and success taken to extremes can prevent you from having a ripping good time.
I don't even know who you are or why you wrote this post, but I upvoted it and commented because one of your supporters(acidyo) resteemed this into my feed. That you can find support and an audience due to you speaking your mind should account for something, shouldn't it?
Also, take a look at berniesanders. That guy comes off as a total flailing asshole, but I'll still support his cause when I don't think he's going over the line because I respect him putting himself out there. Although, in his case I'm not sure there was ever a choice whether to get involved or not. Some people just have to be themselves.
And by the way, I fucking hate bots. I don't use bots or self-vote. I feel like a scum bag for loaning steempower through minnowbooster, but I at least try to pick the least spammiest borrowers I can find. I do it because of the aforementioned fiat losses. That's where my line is. Yes, hypocritical, but how much are your losses?
Anyway, I think you need to release yourself from the attachment to expected future gains. It seems to be causing you pain. Expect nothing, and you have everything to gain.