Hi there @blessed-girl, I'm so glad you found this post helpful! Sometimes I think it's comforting when you realise that everyone has probably felt the exact same way at some point here. Please do join the Curation League because it is a great motivator, but also because there are a lot of wonderful, kind and helpful people there who would be happy to give you a helping hand if you needed it; and they all have something to offer you in terms of learning more. You just have to follow them and watch how they interact, and learn from their success. I'm not talking financial success either (although I'm sure some of them are for sure), but I mean success in terms of creating a real community.
Have you heard of @newbieresteemday, @greetersguild, or @asapers yet? Or are you on Discord? If you have absolutely no idea what I'm talking about, don't worry, because there are so many people in those groups who would be happy to help you out...me included. They are all groups that have been formed to welcome, support, encourage and educate new and not-so-new folks here.
So please message me back here and let me know if we can make your experience a better one. This is a community after all :)
Thank you so much for stopping by!