Ergh! I'm so annoyed that this post (and your previous post) doesn't have more upvotes/comments... You've really put effort and heart into them.
Like I said, I am happily free (for now) of any suicidal thoughts, and actually have the opposite problem of wishing I could live more than is possible.
And I can't not talk about the Law of Attraction... I think you put it in a way here that makes more sense, but usually what is published speaks of an energy that exists that you can 'channel" with positive thoughts, which then attracts things to you like a spiritual magnet... Bleh. ;P
It really is just all psychology. When you're optimistic, you're more open to and likely to recognise an opportunity than when you are pessimistic. Simple as that... No "energy channeling" whatsoever. It would be different they used energy as a metaphor or something, but most don't.
And yes... The idea of being present in the here and now is powerful. I used to live in the future a lot but now some might say I don't live in it enough ;P ...
I'm glad to know that right now, the darkness has subsided somewhat in your life and hope it continues to do so =)
I thought this would get more view, too. It is what it is. The Law of Attraction ALWAYS works. The problem is that people think it's only for positive focus. When you focus on the bills, you get more bills. It's all about where you put your focus. And in a way that is where you "channel your energy". But you don't have to focus on channeling your energy. You have to focus on what you want, not what you don't want. Its a fine line of distinction.
Some of my darkness was because of a physical chemical imbalance. We fixed that and it has made so much difference. Most people think you should be able to deal with it without prescription drugs. In my case, they were wrong. I'm only sorry I didn't get help sooner. Mine goes a little deeper than depression. I also suffer from paranoia. That makes it really hard to discuss depression and suicide with people who could put you in a psych hospital if they want to.
Thanks for reading. I'll post the next bit probably by Friday. Feel free to resteem. :)