Nah, I need some structure in my life, the difference is that now I work here because I want to, not because I need to. This change everything
It makes all of the difference. I am not "there" where I can choose one hundred percent, but one of my colleagues was surprised to learn that I took a pay-cut for the job (as I had to cut back on my own business a bit) and I don't do it for the money still.
once anything is a "must" it becomes controlling. We can't control all of our needs - we have to eat, sleep, move etc - but how we do these things is within our control.