I can hear you!
It has been my experience that life throws us "the uncontrollable" and "the unexpected" when we ignore or postpone opportunities for growth. I had to learn it the hard way - there is no point in trying to control life. Whatever you are afraid to do, you will at some point have to do, if you are to allow your spirit to grow and unfold.
My favorite book character is Edmond Dantes. He became a truly powerful man, the Count of Monte Cristo, because of all the suffering he lived through, but the reason life threw him on such a hard and sorrowful path is this - he was afraid of his own happiness.
I don't believe for one second that sadness is unavoidable or that some people have no choice but to go through it. Sadness is just a misalignment of energy, the thinking of sad thoughts.
You have a wonderful spirit and a great talent, now all you have to do is figure out what your spirit is telling you, where it wants to go:)
@anarchospace, I have been waiting for this comment of yours, I can hear you talking to me as I read these words. I know that I have to go through everything, not leaving a path untaken. I just have to let go of my attachment and stop trying to control things.
Thank you for your kind words.