Hello @cryptopie my friend
You are always concerned about what might not work well. one thing i want you to know is that, the more you worry about things, the more you get yourself depressed and you won't be able to realize when what you are thinking about has finally come.
I know is not easy seeing your friends and sibling gotten married and left you behind. but the truth is, no matter the number of people that got married around you, their own cannot stop your own marriage.
I believe that very soon you will have family that you will call your own.
I care much about your feelings my friend.
Best regards @funkylove