Sometimes, I am so distressed thinking about the solution to my problems, that I forget to post on waves and play rising star game.
Sometimes, I am so distressed thinking about the solution to my problems, that I forget to post on waves and play rising star game.
Nothing lasts forever, including our problems. 🤗
Yes, I know that, that's why I see death as the most direct solution, I'm tired of fighting, I'm old, tired and I don't have family or anyone to take care of me. I am alone for everything. So I prefer to go quickly.
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Hi Manclar, it's difficult to have this feeling that nobody is around to help out. I want you to know that even though we may not know each other in person, there is a valuable person sitting right there, prompting me to reply. I'd like to stand by you, and I'd like you to help me out a little bit... by letting me know what's going on that's causing you to feel so much distress that death seems like the optimal solution?
I saw that you're having financial difficulties, but I'm sure that we can do something to help out with that. There's something else underlying here, and I'm interested to know what's hurting you so much, and how we can address it.
They cut off the internet on Tuesday, and that is one of my concerns. In the video I posted on my wall I explain everything in detail. I invite you if you have time to come and watch it, it has an English sub. I was forced to make the video to request support from the entire hive.
On the other hand, there are many things, mainly the uncertainty of not having a guaranteed monthly income to be able to pay the $33 for the internet and in reality I require much more (with food, tents, services, etc. I think it would reach about 150 or 200), I have already told it several times over time. I have had a hard life.
needless to tell you about the long list of health conditions, teeth in poor condition with about 12 pieces to be repaired, cavities, unfinished root canal treatments, infections and lizard skin on the legs, circulation problems, temporary partial paralysis in the legs and the sciatic nerve, hypertension, and on top of that I suffer from anxiety and panic attacks. That among another long list, the truth is I don't like to talk about any of this, because they always ask me what's wrong with me, and I have to repeat this entire giant paragraph infinite times and I'm already tired of doing it my friend.
I know that your intentions are good and positive, and I appreciate them, in the video I explain everything, the truth is that at this very moment I am not in the mood to talk, at some point between today and Tuesday, if you want to do so, I will write to you on discord .
I hope you don't understand this response as aggressive or disrespectful, it's just that I don't like talking about this topic and people force me to do so.
I don't want to talk about it again, enough is enough, it's already explained in the video, I've repeated it hundreds of times on discord this week, I think that's enough my friend.
Anyway, I'll contact you via discord, maybe tomorrow or Saturday, thanks.
Basically the solution for me at this moment is to have a guaranteed average fixed income in hive, so that I can collect at least 70 hbd per month to support myself, since my only other income comes from renting a parking space and it is only $20 per month.
I have been surviving on a pair of pants for 3 years, they are already torn and mended, and a pair of shoes, in general I lost my quality of life about 10 years ago...and I have continued to survive.
Now I ask for help on my video.
Appreciate you writing this all out, and I understand how irritating it would be to repeat all the details so many times without ultimately getting too much out of it. I did look through your profile in advance so to see if I could scout out more information but overlooked the video link.
I'm going to provide assistance (to the best of my ability) by making a monthly post with you as a 100% beneficiary. It's not going to be much, but I hope that it will help at least a little bit. Except the first one within the next couple of weeks.
Hopefully over time you'll be able to cover enough expenses that you can start taking care of your health issues. We'll do our best to grow and help you get to that point.
I thank you very much for understanding the matter so deeply, which is so delicate and sensitive for me, from the bottom of my heart yes. I'm a good person, that's for sure.
I really appreciate your attention, I'm sure that will help in some way, any contribution is good. I have been forced to do power down to be able to pay all the bills and expenses, and I am panicking that my account is currently at less than 100 HP It's already at 500, and it has taken me a lot of work to achieve it.
I am suffering my friend, but I appreciate and appreciate your good will, the truth is I don't know what else to tell you that is appropriate or correct.
I will be attentive to you and the community, in which I have not participated because this whole problem is bigger than me and surpasses me, and that does not give me the courage to write frequently,
When I don't feel pressured, I'll definitely post there.
THANK YOU. PEACE AND LOVE
It's no problem, this problem is certainly bigger than participation in a community. Don't worry about it. There's no expectation for you to post or participate, but from my end, the expectation is to help people out when they need it.
I've had an FC charity account in mind for a while, and I think you'd be a great person to benefit from the HP that will be collected over time (once the account is opened). That one's going to take a lot of time, since this is all grassroots and thus far, from my pocket, but we'll do our best. I know that, given your time frame of suffering, that's painful to hear - but our best is what we will do!
Peace & love - no need to reply, preserve your energy.
I hear you. I'm homeless and things are not easy. We don't have much at all however here is a 100% vote.
Pain is something that can be a big issue. I know that one first hand.
Thank you for being honest. You have a new follower from us.
Have you been using the hive engine investments?
I do a class that teaches everyone how to grow and make more here on hive. And even have friends that speak Spanish that would be able to help you get some more traction.
We are definitely going to be willing to help you.
Yes, I have been in these blockchains since Steemit, about 6 years or so.
Yes, I have had to sell all the investments I had in hive engine to pay for food... I know how to invest, I sold all my assets from splinterlands and other nft games to be able to survive, and now the only thing I have left (my last resort) It's hive, I've already had to liquidate everything else.
I hope it makes sense to you that right now I cannot afford to invest in anything other than my survival, the minimum income to be able to have somewhere to eat and pay for the roof under which I sleep, and of course the internet.
I have had the ability to clairvoyance for more than 50 years, I was born with it, so I find out things that most of the time I don't want to know... that's why I tell you that I know you are a great person, as well as freecompliments and his entire community.
I really need your help, I am in crisis, to the point that I would do anything through the internet if they guaranteed me payment for my basic needs (internet, food, rent, electric and telephone service, the rest are luxuries that I lost a long time ago. the hope of enjoying pizza again or things like that that are far from my reach).
Today is a good day to die.
That is our way of the warriors in my native American tribe.
For we have lived and loved. We have been happy and been sad. We have experienced this world. We were never promised endless happiness. Or tranquility. Life is hard and difficult.
Today is a good day to die. For this is just the next step in being human. We all can't escape fate.
That next journey will have all your friends family and of course that killer kitty.
And until that time, it is on you to help touch the world and leave your fingerprints behind upon it.
One of the most profound ways that you could do that is by coming to the free compliments community and helping other people. Would love to have you and we've got a great plan to help others.
May you get to experience having plenty of friends as well as purpose. I feel if you had friends and a direction you could be so much more.
So I absolutely invite you. And I think you might have an amazing amount of wisdom to share with others.
THankyou bro i appreciate your words, read my long answer here please:
https://peakd.com/waves/@manclar/re-freecompliments-s4yu1e
We "die" every night, and "live" every day. We may "dream" at night, wen we "dream" and live our "dream" we live our dream.
Frog wisdom! I love it!
#freecompliments
I read all your replies and also saw the post. Words are not enough to keep you going without support. We at free compliment would be always eager to help. I believe you still have a lot to stand for. You've been surviving through this, and this will never be the bus stop. I share your pain @maclar
Very grateful to you and to all the people from freecompliments who have come to offer me their helping hand to hold me and tell me that I am not alone, I truly value feeling accompanied and that you understand that it takes more than words to be able to overcome this challenge, It really makes me quite happy.
Thank you, I feel the bond of brotherhood from all of you, always count on me, of course, when I feel in better spirits.
Love.
One love ❤️❤️❤️
Hope things are looking brighter!
not at all, but well, i need stability my friend, i am fighting so hard.
Check your email. Hope that helps a little
:O wow my friend, I owe you a lot, this is a good help.
I don't even know what to tell you!
I don't know if thank you is enough, you make me cry =(
Us old folks have to stick together! All you owe me is a smile.
thankyou very much, i really need to hug you my partner! <3 YOU ARE AWESOME!
FreeCompliments will come through for you. Sleep well tonight knowing you have friends.