My brother, if you wanted her with all your heart it would be so. But, like my own, I believe your heart is conflicted. In the process of attaching ourselves to one thing or one person, we detach ourselves from everything and everyone else.
I believe I have spoken to you enough to know that you are not one who is blind to their responsibility. And so I am sure that on some level you know, it is not right for you to be with her. You have a higher calling. Not because you are "chosen." But because you have chose. Chose to serve a purpose greater than your own desires, and this conflict, between having what you want and doing what you know you must, is what divides your will and your focus, and keeps her from you.
God demanded Abraham to sacrifice what he held dearest, because there were more important things for him to focus upon. I believe it is time for you, and for me, to make a similar sacrifice. For it is only when we have truly let go of our greatest desire, that we will be able to take sight of the will that betrays it.
But the choice of course, is yours. And this is the greatest blessing of life - the ability to choose. So if you wish not to sacrifice a future with her, then sacrifice the part of you that wishes to make a difference, and into your arms I am sure she will fall quickly.
Hey friend, it's good to hear from you. When you say...
I'm not sure if you're referring to Amanda or the woman I told her about. I can't be with Amanda as she is no longer physically here, in regard to the other woman I just kind of feel like she's dealing with a lot and I don't really want to try to pursue her when her loss is so fresh. Maybe in the future, but... I'm just not really getting the vibe she is wanting to meet up with me so I'm not going to push it.
I do think what you mentioned about detaching is some powerful stuff and I have recently sort of "let go" of all my dreams in regard to romantic stuff for the most part and am focused hard on working for a while, I think if I do it this way and work hard that maybe the romantic thing will come down the road when I'm more successful. :)
Though, ultimately to be as free as I am right now in my mind is a great gift... It would be much more difficult to buy me off considering the extreme loss I've already dealt with... And I've been able to spend a lot more time trying to help the world because I haven't been in a relationship, so... I try to see the different aspects and would like to experience some more romance, though I'm just so busy right now I think I gotta focus on me for a while. <3
Thanks for the very thoughtful response! It gave me a lot to think about.
Also, I look forward to chatting with you more on discord! Peace friend. <3
I do not think myself deserving of the thank you at the end of your comment. I did not read closely, for I presumed the post was about the one you told me of some time ago, that you cared very deeply for. I felt that I would become sad and start missing the one I love, if I read the message in its entirety. But it was foolish of me to presume, and I apologise for that.
I am glad, however, that I managed to say something relevant at least.
In regards to the loss I now understand you to have suffered, I've nothing to say. For I know there is nought I can that will make any significant difference. Some wounds are only healed with time. But if you would ever like to talk about it, you know where to find me.
It's alright. No need to apologize.
It's true that any words will likely not change much in regard to that, however I do appreciate words nonetheless even if they are futile at times and beyond the ability of "spirit" to properly convey or express.
Also... Thanks for offering to be there if I would ever like to talk about that. I appreciate that and will keep that it mind!