I was very moved by your story and by all the ones in the comments.
I'm not going through a very good time right now either. What nobody tells you is that the process of healing hurts, because you can only heal what is wounded.
A few days ago I had an accident that caused me an hemorrhage. The whole process was extremely painful physically and emotionally.
Now that I no longer bleed and I am recovering I understand that everything passes. The deepest pain, the biggest wound, the most horrible discomfort... It's all going to pass. Nothing is forever, neither ugly nor beautiful.
It's funny how depression has taught me gratitude. Now when a day is good I appreciate it and live it to the fullest because I know it's going to pass too and that the next day could suck.
Don't give up on yourself either. Here we are to accompany us @vicvperezdelara#0265 :)
Like the Jorge Drexler song says:
"...your heart is going to heal and it's going to break again, as long as it beats..."