That's some real nice wording there :-) One can certainly relate to much of this. I used to support people in Mental Health support groups and PTSD is a very common subject in poetry. I think it's the only way we can make sense of the feelings, where we go from zombie like detachment (a complete emotional separation) then other times switch to a full on nightmare of feeling so brutally anxious and emotionally charged it's like you heart's going to bust our your chest! The swing between hope and utter despair remains the only real constant.
Thank you!(: I can definitely see that, we feel everything so deeply. Pouring it out on paper helps from keeping it bottled up and destroying you from the inside out. I've found the more I talk about a traumatic experience, the easier it gets to accept and move on.
Self expression is essential when it comes to things like PTSD. It's a slow progression, but each step is groundbreaking. Writing helps when we have no one to externalise with. Reading it back can help put things into a perspective we never thought of before :-)