Writing is a love/hate relationship for me. I love doing it when I'm inspired to write about something specific, but otherwise it is very hard for me to get motivated. I've had two posts that I needed to get done for months now, but I just haven't felt like completing them.
I have no illusions of people's interests either. Most people have very little interest in their home security. By home security too, I don't mean just a scam default monitored alarm system. I mean the entire process that books have been written about and many more books should be written about.
What the police, fire departments, and alarm companies teach people is just the tip of a very large iceberg. What I've found though is that most people won't even bother to properly secure their doors let alone take a more thorough approach. It doesn't have to be expensive either, so people from all levels of income have ways to improve their situation.
Therefore, knowing all of that, I write for my own sake. Yes, I write to help people, but my assumption is that most people won't read the post anyway. That's fine though as long as I'm not writing for them first. As many of us on here do, we are writing to improve our craft and to put ideas into the blockchain.
For me at least, it is all worth it even if I help just one person. I know you have helped far more than one person too my friend, so please never feel the need to apologize. We all have many things tugging at us day to day that take away our energy and time. If something is meant to happen too, it will eventually happen.
Your symptoms sound an awful lot like those a close friend of mine suffers from. They treat it successfully with a plant that resolves almost all of the symptoms at once while also making sure they sleep well. I'm not sure if you can get access to it or if you'd be willing to try it, but it sounds like you should at least consider it.
Without enough quality sleep, none of us can function properly. I hope you find a way to resolve that issue and feel better soon!
This for sure. I also like the "If only I help one person, that will be worth it" attitude that you mention and I like to restate it for the purpose of producing content intended to influence society as "If only I influence one person, that will be worth it". My stream of writing becomes a meme, that can produce rings on the water down the line. All with the intent of adding value to peoples lives, of course.
That plant has most likely been on my list of things to try. Many have. However there are pretty subjective yet harshly applied laws in this country and I don't want to get in trouble for using anything for medicinal purposes. That would be the last straw.
Sleep and overall health is improving, but it's a slow, shaky and cyclical process. As long as I'm alive and well enough to get through the day, I'm content with being and can accept that fact. Things can (almost) only get better from here!
Well, I hope you do get better, and I hope you can move or find a way to try the plant as medicine. I know people who would not be alive today if they had not used it. They ignored the stupid laws against it as well. Doing that is a personal choice though as you know!