What can I say, the biggest part of my life I experienced lots of contrast, like you do. I did not know how life worked! You don't do something wrong, you just have not allowed the improvement in... That is what this filosophy talkes about.
getting bullied for years is becoming unhealthy
Of course, because you pay the most attention to what you do not want, and the real one, you went on, and that difference is negative emotions
Meditate!
Not allowed the improvement in...how is this done?
By giving your attention more to what you do want!
That, you can practice and the best way to start is by stop thinking for some time, best in de morning. That's meditation. Start your day of with a quiet mind.
This is a progressive thing, take 15-20 minutes every day.
These are the processes of the Abraham's teachings and my own experience.
When you type in youtube, "Abraham Hicks", you can find workshops and discussion on many subjects. Thousands of videos
https://www.youtube.com/results?search_query=abraham+allowing
Good Question!
let me check him out ta!