Futuremind! Man so good to hear from you! I really appreciate you reaching out and sharing your all too similar struggles and the kind words.
You also clearly have the best intentions and that's what matters most in my book. We may fall but we get back up and admit our faults openly.
I fixed things today by apologizing to my in-laws and expressing my pain and unhealthy coping mechanisms that I will do my best to tame. For us addicts it's easy to excuse ourselves and say its just a few beers at least I'm not doing this or that, but ultimately it's the escapism that is the draw and as you've said when having a support system and not pushing them away is difference maker.
I also got out and drove my wife to the coast and got some fresh ionized air and fishy ocean smells in the system which helped fully release the dumb shit I'd put myself and others through needlessly. I'm still living and learning to be a better me. Thanks again I'll be on the lookout for your posts. I don't have those apps but I might get them and I'll let you know for sure. That's a 2 way street and feel free to holler at me and I'll get to a private chat asap.