I don’t know how many times in my life, I’ve been on the
Verge of Despair,
when every avenue I tried for solving
A problem seemed to be a dead end,
Or worse.
With each fruitless contact,
Every phone call not answered, every email
That wasn’t returned,
It just opened up more of the
Things that added to my growing disquiet.
Then Suddenly the Sun Comes Up,
The light shines in!
Then, a Silver Lining appears & things are far better
Than I could have imagined.
I keep telling
Myself (and others) that you just have
To keep on trying, keep on doing the
Next Right Thing, and
Eventually it Will be alright.
It is called FAITH.
But that doesn’t stop me from
Falling into the dark depths of
Anguish and despair for a
Time.
I just have to keep
My mind on the prize, and realize that this
Is just a season; it
Too, shall pass.
"Anguish, Despair and Silver Linings"
by
Jerry E Smith
©5/20/16
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the times being what they are, I thought I'd bring this forward.
We all need some hope, to see us through.
I sure do
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Sometimes when a certain time in your life seems bad, it is a time for a lesson to be learned. I have gone through and continue to go through rough times in my life, dealing with many things that I would not wish on anyone else, I find it makes me much stronger.
We could "Commiserate" and share our war stories some time if you like.
I have friends who tell me "I cannot beLIEVE all the crap you've been through in your life"
And when I sit down and try to write any sort of 'memoir', I tend to get stuck thinking:
"No one is going to believe this all happened to one person", which inevitably evolves to:
"Did all this really happen, or am I hallucinating, making it all up as I go?"
Self doubt destroys lessons learned I fear.
People who did not go through what we have, many times do not understand it and do not fathom the sadness and anguish that it causes us every day and many times every night. I have learned to just keep things to myself and not put it out there because people do not understand or believe what we went through because they have never been there or seen it and the anger I experience from the reactions of people is not worth it.
"Shhhh... don't say anything and it will pass, don't yell back, don't make a fuss and it will all be better", so essentially what you said. Keep it bottled up.
This is not healthy. It has caused me all manner of trauma, holding the pain and emotional turmoil inside.
Of course you meant to just not say anything to start with, but when your insides are calling out for understanding and acceptance, you need to find a way to express that.
I think.I agree @ambiguity, and yet, in my home growing up, our mother taught us to:
Yes, I get that! I have learned to talk to a mirror and it helps. People find that funny but I am here to tell you it works.
I would say talk to other vets and get it out. The problem is non-combat vets do not really understand and many combat vets think it shows weakness. So I hear and understand what you are saying!
That moment of deep despair always turns out to be moment before transformation. Stepping out of the old and into the new.. And then the cycle starts again. I have experienced it so many time you would think I could see it but nope, always feels terrible and then the light pours in, and Im like Oh Yeah, I knew that
Im glad to know someone else feels this way @sostrin, it can be a hard row to hoe.
Good post brother. These are moments we spend, that generate anguish and concern. However, there is always a hope of faith. Blessings
Thank you @elpastor, I am glad you found something to resonate with in my writing.
#POSH
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