So here I am after a long break. Life always goes on and I am sure that some people forgot about me while others still remember me and maybe wondered what happened.
Long story short I decided to leave my country in the pursuit of a different way of living. In my mind I had the perfect plan and everything should have gone smooth and easy. But it didn't. Life and the big Universe showed me, once again, how the most certain thing in life is change.
I will not go into details for the moment as it still takes me time to process a lot of the things which happened abroad. Being a foreigner in a place where you don't speak their language is hard. Being betrayed by someone you trust in no man's land is even harder. But life is just like this, unpredictable. And that is ok.
For the moment I am slowly regaining balance and I am grateful that I am continuously learning about being resilient.
I started to get closer to my dream of becoming a tattoo artist by being put in very difficult situations abroad. I thought I knew rock bottom at my beauty salon where I had to live. But the last month proved me there is always a new rock bottom to reach . Hilariously sad, being betrayed, backstabbed, abandoned and then saved showed me that I can cope with adversity even miles away from my country. I am proud of myself, I am a strong woman and a tough cookie.
I am grateful that I can focus for the moment on tattoing on fake skin, slowly getting to know my machine. For me this is the therapy I need in dificult times. Yes, I've got a tattoo machine. Yay! Through art I heal and I regain balance. I am so happy that I packed my painting stuff and books as they help me remain creative.
I am healthy and I feel like I have learned so much in my experience abroad that I can now look back and just smile at how the Universe has this magic trick of always hiding a diamond in a pile of...shit. Yes, because shit happens in life all of the time and there are valuable lessons to learn from each experience.
I am trying to make peace with some things from the past and to bury deep some feelings. With time it will get better I suppose. I am focusing on myself and my healing and my plans for the future. For the moment being able to wake up and put my hands on a tattoo machine is my magic pill.
I am in a beautiful area surrounded by forests and I feel a sense of calm knowing I can follow the routine I had back home by walking in the woods. This might be permanent or I might change my place again. Who knows...Life is a like a box of chocolate, filled with surprises.
I'll stop here as I feel that it is enough information about everything and nothing in one post after my absence. I am grateful I have this place to go back to, knowing that my feelings will be forever stored in here.
It feels nice to be able to call one place home....glad to be back in my Hive.
My future posts will be about my tattoing progress, which I am pretty stoked about.
How lame am I? I had to scroll back to see where you were now! I am so glad to see you and read your words.
Life is cruel that way, showing us how we never really knew rock bottom, even when we thought we did. For a long while, I checked on your presence, until I didn't. Not forgotten, but, life.
I am glad you are safe again (You are, right??) I am going up to read the new things, but, so good to see you again.
Hahaha life is always changing. Since that post things have changed again for me🙈 I will post updates soon, I am safe for sure now and I just roll with it. It's a bit of a rollercoaster and I am getting better. If I have faith nothing can break me.
Life happens to all, I realize that each of us is often consumed by our own problems. It just happens. Sometimes I also look up to the sky and remember myself that life is so much more than me, now and my problems. It helps. Just looking at the sky and realizing how big the universe is.
Hi Mary, good to see you back. In life, there are always obstacles, but I know you are a strong person and you will deal with those. Nature will truly be good for your sanity and well being. I hope you are enjoying the countryside.
I wish you a great future as tattoo artist, you'll make it girl. Keep on being strong! God bless you dear!
Thank you very much, God bless you too!🤗
Hello There!
Nice to see you! It's just last night that I glanced at your profile and saw that you were last here, June I believe. It's nice to see you back.
It's not nice to be there, but these are the times when we learn, grow, and become more resilient!
I hope that you're at a good place now, and all good wishes:)))
Hello ! I am glad to see you stop by, I did indeed had to take a longer break than I thought.
Rock bottoms are my new high. I learned so much in the last 2 months, I feel actually better about myself as a person knowing I can be resilient and push through any hurdle. Leaving my country and going solo is not easy, I did it alone and yet I survived lol. I will have a lot of tales to tell to my kids that is for sure.
Hugs 🤗
Totally hear you. All the best for you. Btw, my break takes even longer lol. Glad I checked in to read this. 😊
Haha thank you girl, I hope everything goes well for you I appreciate your presence here🤗
I totally relate to what you are going through, however, it is a sign that you ARE a very strong person. Sometimes changes are necessary, no matter how difficult they may be at first. From now on I will start following you, I'm glad you are a tattoo artist, I love tattoos, at the moment I have 7. It is too beautiful art captured in our body ❤☄ Greetings, blessings and lots of encouragement to you!
Thank you so much! May God give you strenght to go through all of your obstacles too! Praying has helped me a lot and it really made me feel I am never alone.
Blessings to you too girl🤗
Thanks 🙏🏻✨❤️
Personally I just found you! Keep grinding you will find what you need!
Ah I am glad you did, I hope my posts will inspire you! Thank you for the good wishes, I am grinding and powering through🤗
Thank you! I look forward to the content. Have a great evening!
Welcome back - this is a time of challenge for many people, there will be a lot for most of us to process for a while.
Just a tip from someone who has been healing a long time, accepting, expressing and releasing the emotions as sound/movement (safely and in private) is infinitely more beneficial than burying them. <3
Thank you! I agree with you and I am slowly getting there, I know that what I need is to heal rather than to supress. I am confident that I must trust the process and that everything is guiding me through this. I saw a useful exercise for releasing trauma from the body by the soothing work of rocking back and forth your hips while sitting belly down on the bed. There are many ways in which we can heal, feel free to leave me some ways which helped you, I would appreciate as indeed trying to bury things only makes them stronger...
You are welcome. It's great that you are open to using movement of different kinds to get the emotions moving and evolving. The default for many people at this time is stagnation and suppression (denial), unfortunately - which is a large part of why the hospitals are overloaded!
This book (Feelings Matter) is one of the best ever written on this topic. It's author also produced a series of 8 books that are channeled from spirit on the topic of emotional (and other) forms of healing. She then wrote Feelings Matter herself to convey what she had learned from so many years of personal and group work, plus teaching the material. If you are open to the deepest possible information then her other books are indispensable, but Feelings Matter is a great introduction.
I agree so much with you! I will definetely read it!
Now I am currently reading Gabor Mate The Origins and healing of ADD and I am blown away as much as I almost cried recognizing myself in this book. A lot of the times people have no idea about their trauma or why they behave in such a way.
In the end it is always about self parenting ourselves in order to heal from a childhood which was not filled with what we most needed, love.
Thank you for the words and the book recommendation🤗
I wish I can live in such an amazing place and take amazing photos like in this post of yours.
Oh thank you but if you knew through what I had to go through to end up in such a place.....you would think twice lol. I am blessed to be where I am now, truly blessed by God. Have a great day🤗
Life is really full of surprises. I'm currently backpacking around Europe and I can say it's been an amazing experience!
Enjoy life, @creativemary!
Wow that is so cool, I am stoked for you, it must be an awesome experience! You should feel proud and liberated! Hugs and good luck🤗
Happy to read you back and with such lively energy after all this experience!
Thanks a lot! I have been low and now I am up again, I wish this for every person facing difficulty, to have the capacity to get up and keep going, no matter how dark it seems to be. Blessings🤗
Very beautiful) And you are beautiful, tender) and nature is beautiful)
Nice photos)
Thank you🤗 Nature is my therapist lol
Wow girl, you are waving on changes and big life decisions, and I admire you for that! Good luck with your fresh beginning and I keep my fingers crossed to see the sun rising again on your path 🤗
Hey Gabriela! Boy did I do a lot of changes about my life lately lol. If I would go back...I would think twice about going abroad totally alone and with no back-up plan lol. I was brave ( aka what was I thinking lol) and despite everything I managed to get back on my feet and believe in my dreams. God and praying truly helped me, if I were to tell the whole story it would look like taken from the movie. But real life beats movies I have lived it on my real skin.
I would advise anyone to keep hope and never give up their dreams, even if it might bring them a lot of troubles. In the end not fighting for your dream kills you on the inside much more than living a life of comfort.
Blessings and a hug from far away my romanian travelling fairy🤗
I like how the weather looks here. A little bit cold but sunny. It looks like the dawn. I hope you don't get bitten by snakes. Stay safe.
That's true. But despite the fact you will come across bad people, there are still good people out there you are willing to assist.
Yes, it is quite a moody weather. But I love it.
I believe in the goodness of people, I truly do. It got me into trouble as I sometimes suffered but I regret nothing.
Blessings to you 🤗
I remember you! I am glad you are safe and glad you are back 😀
Hahah Boomy Boom! I am now safe and back. It feels good to know I was not forgotten in the archives of Hive lol. I hug you from the distance I hope the Good Lady has been treating you well 🤗
You were not forgotten that is for sure! I hope you get to posting again and everything ios going well for you in this foreign land!
Thank you Boomy slowly I will get back to my normal routine🤗
It's good to see you back and good luck with your tattoos I'm sure you will do very well 🤗 @tipu curate 2
Thanks man, it is my dream 🤗🤗
You are welcome 🤗
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Thank you🙂
That's quite the scenery! Where are you?
Yes, it is a little forest oasis in Germany. I love it.
I can't wait to see your tattooing progresses!
Thank you, it is an exciting journey for me too I look forward to share it here🤗
Я побачив, що ви в українській сорочці, то ж мабуть україночка. І пишу саме цією мовою. Ви мене мабуть зрозумієте, побачивши рідну мову. Ой, а тату, це цікаво! Дуже хотів собі зробити, але так і не вирішив яку саме тату. Буду читати і далі, бо цікаво. Приємно познайомитися!
Wow I am deeply touched by your comment, it is so poetic and yet it hits the nail on the head. Yes, I did not feel like putting a smiling facade in the picture. Thank you very much, you have truly understood how I felt during these times in my life. Blessings🤗