HaHa! In former times, you would probably have been thrown on the stake as a witch. Or, if you had been in a better karmic position, you would have been employed as a jester at the court of a king. In any case, you are a provocative type of person, which I welcome.
I certainly don't agree with you on everything, but I am all for diversity in the web of human individuals. How boring our existence would be if we were all knitted the same way. I suspect most of us grew up sexually repressed in some way.
Prostitution takes on a repulsive quality when it is involuntary and you go to bed with people you are disgusted by. Having sex with people for money, choosing your clients and not letting them treat you as a commodity requires a very pure mind in my eyes. Free from all shame and guilt and remorse. Like you said. To be such a person you would have to be of a kind of enlightenment that makes me wonder if such is not the desire you have rather than you really having had that ease at every moment of your personal history. That is, without exception and the strange flavour that as a paid escort one probably feels the odd time when one crosses the fine line between being one''s own or being owned by another. You will know what I mean?
As a young woman, I had the experience that, invited by a very wealthy man, I enjoyed the meal very much, but something in the background made me feel uncomfortable. The premonition proved to be correct, as this man clearly - afterwards - made me understand that I should be sexually pleasing to him. However, he was not my type and so the situation became quite uncomfortable for both of us. I thought it was clumsy, because if he had interpreted the signals correctly, he would have refrained from his approach. But it could just as well be that I had already suspected this myself and, in order to spare myself the situation, didn't need to accept the dinner invitation in the first place. He was actually close friends with my then bosom friend and I was supposed to keep him company that evening because she had to work. If I had found him attractive, it still wouldn't have been a quid pro quo for an expensive meal, because then we could have eaten a sausage sandwich and drunk cheap booze.
There have been moments in my life when someone's uptightness has made me feel their shame. I was out for a sexual conquest, wanting to have an easy and nice day. And he went along with it. Afterwards, however, he cut me like the devil cuts off holy water. I was irritated at first, but then suspected that he was ashamed for reasons I didn't know. I was embarrassed by this because his discomfort caused me one of my own.
It is sometimes not easy to draw a clear line between one's own feelings and those of others, because we equally know shame as a basic feeling, even if it then affects other areas that have nothing to do with sexual liberty, for example.
Loving someone, even if only for the moment, is a very beautiful experience. To really genuinely like each other without asking the other for their phone number, a reunion, and to spend the most beautiful warm summer night with dance and music, I think is a precious experience. Not to succumb to the fallacy that one could ever repeat such a night with the same stranger, but to leave it in uniqueness. We didn't exchange the "usual facts" like "what do you do for a living" blah blah - I asked him not to destroy the magic. He was more than willing to drop all the platitudes and phrases. The only thing we exchanged were our names. Never saw him again after that one in a million night :)
Glad, that you still stirring the scene. I got used to your style and attitude.
Bye for now.
When you set your own market, you set the rules.
We had (maybe) half a dozen meets in over three years, that were 'awkward'.
Out of hundreds.
Shit happens, a job is still a job.
We never had any truly negative experiences.
The biggest part of the work?...A friendly ear.
Psychotherapy almost. Seriously.
We had clients where, after after a few meets, sex was never even on the agenda - it was about having open dialogue and clients being around others who allowed them to be themselves.
I'd go even further than that, and say that 80-90% of escorts meets are rarely about just getting naked and having sex.
Until I did this work, I never realized the sheer amount of unhappy, and very repressed people that there are out there.
I've lost count of the amount of people breaking down in tears because of their personal circumstances.
It was an excellent learning experience regarding psychology and human behavior.
When people are truly naked (metaphorically and literally) the mask slips away - and that is what clients happily pay $200+ an hour for....
I am certain it's exactly the way you describe it, which makes my comment and your answer worth to be read.
People pay for kindness and having a good time. One can look at it from different perspectives, can one? I often heard that it's not always about sex but about having a sincere company. If the client can relax into that, even though he pays for it, then it's all good, I think. It's people trying to shame both who are the judges. That can turn someone around.
I bet, it was an excellent learning experience and I don't judge you for that.
I just could not do it myself, I am not relaxed enough. Lol.
That's for sure. If shit happens, you let it happen and move along :)
Sometimes yes, sometimes no.
Greetings! :)