I wish I could say that it starts with a knot in my stomach. Or a blinding light. A premonition would be nice, or even a headache. But the truth is, I never know when I am going to be overcome with grief.
You might think I would be overcome right now, just talking about it, but no. It comes to me like a whiff, only it sticks around a bit longer than a whiff. Sometimes I can sob once and move it on down the line of my day, but sometimes I just have to stop whatever it is I am doing and double over in tears, moans, shouts even. Sometimes it feels like too much and I will never know joy again.
It's referred to as a hole by many, you've left a hole in my life. It feels more a monolith to me, always in reach should I care to touch it, not that I want to do that very often. It's always with me, carried like a newborn baby, like the newborn baby you were. Those eyes! Huge! Genuine! Joyous! I miss those eyes.
You color every thing I see
yellow
you sing with evey note I hear
love
you warm me you warm me you warm me
I vibrate as tears fall
I hum
I breathe
Just Breathe
and hold me till I die
This is my entry to @mariannewest's daily freewrite challenge. Today's prompt is knot in the stomach.
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So beautiful and heart wrenching, sending hugs. 💔
I spent a bit of time looking at my oldest freewrites, and there you are, commenting on my very first one. Thank you so much for being a big, humble, loving part of my hive journey.
Hugs! I don't even know how to go back so far, but I'm glad that I was there! You're an amazing writer and soul.
scroll baby scroll
xo
Haha!
What a catchy poem...I enjoyed every bit of it
Sending you a huge hug my friend ❤
I received it! Thank you so much. xoxoxo
I am sending big hugs to you, I can not imagine losing a child, but I feel this way about losing my Mother. [[HUGS]]
All losses are difficult, but this one has been by far the most difficult. Thanks for the hugs!
You are so welcome. My Mother lost both of her sons when they were in their 20s, I can not imagine the pain that you, and the pain that she was feeling, but I live with the fear of losing one every day.
Speechless😌
I am fortunate to have never known such grief. My heart goes out to you.
I hope you never have to either. It's very hard.
I cannot imagine your grief. I wish I could give you a hug in person.
You just did. Thank you!
Very well written. Keep up the good work!