It's truly nice to read your post again. Please don't say particularly to yourself that you're being unproductive because you're not. I think you are productive in writing. You're doing a good job, expressing yourself pretty well.
Phrase as "things will be alright, wait and see" works for me, it calms me down and stop me from dwelling on the negative and things that are beyond my control. Do try it instead of "everything is alright" phrase that you know it's not, and might make you feel you're lying to yourself.
I always believe and say that I am alone but not lonely and most of the time I am really not lonely. With your situation, I think you need a family to be around you or a friend, will do you good in your recovery and make life easier for you, I must agree. I'm glad you have Gigi to give you company. Enjoy each other. 😊
Oh yes, you're living in a very nice country, I hope that could inspire you. You know, you are still blessed compared to others... Look around you, not because one is smiling means they're worry free...
The coloring book is a brilliant idea! 👍 maybe you can show us someday. If this is the way you can beat the stress, keep colouring. You can beat this! All the best. 💕
My doctor also suggested something like this and told me to say it to myself every day. Even before bed, she advised me to do something like this.
I really need someone around me to talk, I know I can talk to anybody but I just need a good friend or someone I can trust. Gigi is something, she is a naughty, strange dog who actually loves me the most.
Well, book coloring is satisfying though it seems so childish and a waste of time in many people's opinion. I have a lot of free time so I use my free time doing something that makes me happy and relaxed...