I couldn't take it anymore, I swear.... And yes, sorry for starting this post in such an abrupt way, but if there is something about HIVE and blogging, it is precisely the cathartic function of relaxation and liberation. The truth is that today, Friday, I decided to do the opposite of what I am normally used to do. To break with the monotony of waking up, making breakfast for my daughter, taking her to school, getting ready, going to work and then going back to finish the day; that's enough. Today I need disconnection, peace, pleasure, solitude, and some fascination too?
When I left work, which is the most boring and repetitive thing a human being has to do to "make a living", I decided to stop. I did not stay at the bus stop that normally leads to my house. Prior to that action, which although it was born out of an impulse of tiredness and boredom, I did not leave behind my obligation as a mother. I called my little daughter, and asked her if she was okay and if she had already eaten (I always leave her meals prepared, just to serve them and eat), she answered "Yes, mommy, everything is fine. I'm playing. That sweet answer was enough, I made the decision.
This is how this micro story of how the boredom of repeating the same thing a thousand times, has tired my already tired soul. And if there are things that give me a lot of pleasure is the combination of chocolate and candy. Oh yes, sweet and beautiful pleasure. I took the little money I had available, stayed several stops away from home, went to a small coffee shop, ordered not one, but two lattes, and two huge and always delicious crunchy sweet puff pastry dough cookies with cold chocolate coating. I pulled out my headphones, put on "airplane" mode and played my favorite playlist.
I can assure you, when you're having an amazing time, the passage of time seems to fade cruelly fast. I arrived at that place after 6:00 pm, let's say 6:35 p.m. and when I realized, it was 8 o'clock at night! Crazy... But I felt no guilt. In a long time, I hadn't given myself the time of peace, quiet and detail that every human being needs. You see, being a mom, girlfriend, daughter, and co-worker is not easy.... Everyone at all times expects everything from you. That pressure, added to life's own problems are exhausting.
However, what I think I needed so desperately was to find my serendipity. That fortuitous "thing", that without "looking for it", simply appeared. You will probably think that I am exaggerating a bit with my story and my situation, but I swear it is not so.... I love my family, my little one, but I am not lying when I tell you that getting away from the gray monotony is something I am immensely grateful for. I guess, that's where the urge to disconnect from everything comes from.
To take a few minutes (hours) to simply give myself pleasure, whatever that pleasure may be. To find myself, to be with what I want to do and how I want to do it. Without being accountable, without being with my senses in alert mode or worrying about how I look, how I smell, or who I am with. That wonderful virtue of breaking the routine, with yourself, escaping from everything, everywhere, and all responsibility. I ask you please, when you feel the collapse, take a moment for yourself and disconnect from it all.
We all deserve this. Time. Enjoyment, and not that which comes on a daily basis, but that which we can choose for ourselves.
I loved your post. You are right, Hive and this blogging activity are conducive and I even feel it necessary, like a therapy. I have said it many times in my posts. My therapy is writing, photographing. So I repeat, Hive has saved me.
We all have our own battles and we have to fight them day by day in some way. What we cannot and should not fall into is inaction.
We will continue to read each other... a hug.
Exactly, @nanixxx, Hive, writing and narrate what's happening in our own self, for me, si therapy and relief... Thank you for stopping by, baby girl, I thank you dearly.
You're welcome 🙃
I believe, and it's just my opinion, that if we don't find space to find solace and comfort in our own company we begin to lose ourselves...a situation that doesn't go so well.
In a post I did yesterday called Road Map I wrote the dot point below along with many other points of wisdom I have gleaned in life. This was the first dot point because I believe it is critically important.
Being still, I mean emotionally, and finding moments of inner peace help us work towards better outcomes in life, so well done for taking the time to find some balance within yourself.
That's precisely the reason behind all this post. To recognize and give importance to disconnect from everything. We are no machines, we need pleasure, peace of mind and most of all: enjoy what we think is enjoyable. Beyond all responsibilities and obligations. Thank you, @galenkp ! I certainly will read your post too.
I figured, and applaud you for taking that break...I call it detachment.
The thing is, if we are not ok in ourselves, *we can't be ok for others, help and support them. Self-care is of critical importance.
Sel-care is for me, a constant, my friend... Thing is, when you're a parent, as myself, dedicate time and pleasure could be challenging, not impossible but a bit problematic. With that said, I choose peace every time I can.
Encontrarse a sí mismo es de los trabajos más grandiosos del ser humano. Aprender a disfrutar del presente ayuda a evitar parte del sufrimiento emocional causado por recuerdos del pasado o miedos del futuro. Encontrar paz interior nos completa y llena el alma. Gracias por compartir tu experiencia de liberación, bonita reflexión. Aprovecho para seguirte. Saludos desde Caracas 👋🏻
Oh sí, @danieduardoll, gracias por este comentario tan guapo y hermoso. Me alegra que te haya gustado. Yo también te seguiré y te envío un abrazo gigante.
relatable read that the every day obligations we usually have in life can, in some way, catch up to us and feel suffocating. disconnecting from that has helped personally as well, thanks for sharing this enlightening read 😊
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