For some reason I don't wanna beat around the bush too much on this post. Because I truly want to keep this post "short" by sticking to the plan this time, unlike the previous so called "shorts" of mine haha. So, I'm afraid I won't have much time to dive deep, even though I really want to.
This topic about Evil has been running through my mind for quite a while now. Necessary evil, if we're being specific.
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The past few years have quite relentlessly battered me down, being successful in causing some proper damage. Poking and scratching around on already existing wounds, wounds that haven't fully healed yet.
Some of the scars are still quite visible and up in my face most of the time. A part of me surely doesn't like these scars and flashbacks. Yet, even this naive side of mine has slowly started to accept, that I might have to stare at these blemishes for the rest of my life. I might even have to welcome and accept them at one point, as if they're a part of who I actually am.
Even though I must say that I've gotten quite used to it all by now. That is why the overall "healing process" doesn't take as much time anymore. So, no matter how hard I get hit, I still manage to get up on the instant, somehow.
Albeit, if I said that I truly believed that one day, I will be fully healed up, at a 100%, pure and fresh as a daisy again, then I would simply be lying.
Yet, there's another part of me, a side that I'm beginning to love as these ill-fated and cursed occurrences of life keeps on spreading.
This part of me surely doesn't mind showing off these scars, it's not ashamed of my flawed way of thinking. It would rather flex around and wear these scars proudly, it wouldn't even mind a few new additions of scars either. And it sure as hell wouldn't mind inflicting some serious damage on the ones who dare to harm my family, or even me.
It doesn't listen to reason, it's barbaric, deranged, out of control. Sadly, sometimes it seems that I'm slowly losing control over it, like something inside of me just wants to let go. As life keeps on testing my patience, it seems that this unknown side of mine keeps on growing stronger.
I just somehow want to maintain control over it, retaining a fair amount of control and some hope towards the future. A future where hopefully, things truly get better.
How did that go, hmm? 436? Hmm? Kitty, keep your calm...
wounds, physical, emotional, or psychological, even if they heal, the memory of them remains and we don't forget that.. we never forget how we got the scars... we simply just accept to live with it and that's healing
From 600 to 400, that's progress right there madam...😵
Sooner or later I'll let them be, either ignore them or wear them proudly.
At this point, I guess I'm just tired of getting stabbed in the back, getting hacked on the same damn wounds over and over again.
Balance and control is key point bro. Every coin has the other side like the dark side of the moon. Ha ha ha. No man no. I'm still reading this twice...
Lesssi...
Can't disagree more.... Give it a hard try brother.
Will do brother. ♥️☮️
Well at least you are trying to write shorts bro. 😂
Ahh yes. These dark sides are truly egoistic. I have a love and hate situation with my one myself. But as you said, control is key. If we lose control, there just might be chaos..
I need help, I know. 😵
Yes, that is why I'm still alive, still going, hoping to maintain and see some proper balance in life in the future.
I don't mind the bad, don't want a hefty amount of good either, they're both a part of life, I know that quite well.
Yet, I guess I'm just tired right now. I could use some balance and peace, a bit of balance is all I ask for, all I need.
Patience is the key to success, we need to be patience everytime in every situation in our life. The result of patience is always the best result.
Giving it all I have, let's see where it takes us. 🙏☮️
Accept the darkness, but don't forget to put on a leash on it. That's the key to tame the beast. :')
That's truly the way I guess, hopefully I will see some results soon enough.
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Yes, a tad bit I'd say haha. 🥃