That is impressive how much work and coordination that you put into that. Especially since you did it yourself on your phone lol. Crazy man. But awesome.
I get what you're saying about worrying that you did it for nothing. It's hard not to measure success by the reward, or votes or likes or comments that something we created generates. But sometimes you just have to just enjoy the ride. The "means" is the end... they might be clichés but they could be true perhaps. If you enjoyed the process then that means that it was successful. Art and artists often are not appreciated in their day. No one gets their work the way that they do or wish others would. But if you enjoy what you're doing than it's worth doing in my opinion.
Hello there!
Always got the right words! I've been thinking of what your wrote for a few days, because I was trying to understand what it is that I am feeling, and today I managed to explain it to my wife. I don't know if you remember how you felt when you finished an exam, a test, and you're waiting for the results.
A part of you know if you did well, but you're always trying to downplay the outcome, in order to minimize the disappointment if you don't get a good mark, even if you did well! That's how I feel about it.
So, did I enjoy the process? Yeah, it was cool. I might have put a lot of pressure on this song, especially because in my mind if I don't get the right "success" I am hoping for, I've always decided that it might be the last one.
That's a lot of pressure on one song, but I also feel that if I were to reach a level of success, it would have happened by now.
This...But how do you know that you don't suck?
I think I understand what you're saying. It's a good analogy.
I think with art and creativity there is an element in which you're sort of presenting a piece of yourself to the world as well. In a way, a person is their art. It's a part of their identity, a part of who they are, so if the art isn't accepted maybe the person isn't being accepted. I think it can feel that way sometimes at least, in some circumstances and for some people. Wanting to be accepted and not wanting to be rejected is innate within us so I think it probably effects us on a conscious or subconscious level. I'm not saying that these things apply to you I'm just talking generally. The brain is powerful and mysterious in a way. We don't always know why we feel, think or behave in the ways that we do.
It would seem that you dont suck.. lol 5000+ views seems pretty successful to me, but we all measure success differently as well so that is for you to decide.
Don't worry haha I probably get affected like everyone else. Also even if I am a bit of a lone wolf, I do feel the need to find an audience for what I create. I don't think we just create for ourselves.
Yeah, it's all about paying for advertisements. I am currently running an ad using google ads, so when people are on Youtube they can see it in their feeds or in suggested content. I didn't want to do a skippable ad before someone else's content, because I feel that I am imposing my music on someone else, whereas giving the choice to the person to click on it or not is, different.
Anyway, for now, people watch 20 seconds and then that's it...So that's the "views" you see. I am still not complaining, I'll run the ad until May and then we'll see!
There is so much content out there these days on so many platforms. You need to find ways of getting your stuff out there for people to see. ads like that seem like a necessity nowadays. Smart marketing really